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This morning at abotu 1 am, I was upset because I had no cookies. NOW...this is not a random upsetness. I mean I baked EIGHT DOZEN CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES! Where did they go?

Apparently. They went the way of family members who don't know how to bake their own cookies.

Anyone else out there need a REALLY REALLY good Chocolate Chip cookie recipe?

GRR!

Desdemona glances around the bar curiously. There are many people miling around; laughing, talking dancing. In the corner behind a wall she can hear what sounds like rushing and gurgling water. Peering into the shadows, there are figures there as well; some just watching everyone, others taking advantage of the darkness to steal a kiss. Above them are thick oak rafters, and some patrons perch upon them, swinging their legs and singing, or just leaning against the wall resting.

I will be updating shortly tonight with a new story board

Today, I went out of town to a friends house to help them paint.� They just got this new apartment, you see.� The apartment is kinda nice, but there's apparently a mold problem in the downstairs section of it.� The landlord is fixing that within the next week or so though, so not too bad of a deal there.� It's a 2 bedroom apt, with a good sized living room and kitchen with a livingroom bar window thingie...sorry for the crappy lack of technical terms, but it IS 6:30 something AM and I have only slept for a few hours today.� So they went top check out the apartment. moved in, and got money knocked off the rent for the bad decorating ability of the previous owners.� After all, anyone who thinks that pepto-bizmol pink is a good color for a kitchen has serious issues.� And if the pink wasnt bad enough, pair it with the powder blue cupboards they had up .� *shudders*

So I pick up a couple of friends in Batavia on the way to Pavilion, and we get out there, and what happens? I pass out cold ont he couch after like an hour.� Some painting help I gave them.� They were all sweet about it though, saying that they know that I don't sleep enough so they didn't want to wake me, blah blah....but I still feel bad for not helping. :(

And after all this typing, I have figured out what the blog is missing, it needs little smileys you can click on to insert in your text. LOL.� After they woke me up, we all went to an Irish Pub called O'Lacy's it was nice, but we weren't there long, no one seemed in the mood to get fuckered up or anything.� So it was an early night and I was back in my home town by 12:30am.

It's been nice finding people who I have something in common with outside of the normal shit like a job and the high school stuff.� Most of my friends are off doing their own thing.

So now it's share time again. to many who will view my blog, this will not be a shock to others it might explain things...lol... I am a "Pagan". At this point, I am just starting out in my new religious choice. However, I have to say, it's been a long time in coming.� Probably, since just before I turned 16 and I became interested in the occult, and my friends gave me a tarot deck for my 16th birthday.� I adapted to it so well that I boguth several more, but have not had the same afinity for the deck.� The deck was damaged several years ago, but it still works well for me. However, I dread replacing it as I feel that no other will be the same and cannot replace my beloved deck.� I seem to have without any kind of guidence at all gravitated towards the Norse following, and when doing a search for a form of paganism within the Norse culture, I discovered Asatru.� So, I am looking into the study and practice of Asatru. YAY for me.� the people I have spent the day with, are also Pagans, although I dont believe that any of them follow the practice of Asatru, also known as "Heathens". I am not sure�I prefer the term Heathen to Pagan at this point however.� Pagan�has been bastardized so many times into something that is realitively tame, whereas Heathen is still associated with the�masses of�the Uneducated. As for the others I went out with,� I believe Celtic Druidism is more in the line of their Beliefs.� As far as titles go, being a Druid is�also better sounding than a Heathen...lol...�

Another thing this blog needs is spell check I tell ya. Where was I? Oh, yeah back to the Asatru.

Actually, I'm going back further than that. Over the years, I have had different "teachers" as you will, in the progression of my spiritual Growth. And I have mroe and more become a fatalist as time has gone on.� Things really do happen for a reason.� Abotu 7 years ago, I met a group of people who were all also interested in some form of pagan belief, although not outwardly and blatantly.� They were your garden variety Closet Pagans. LOL.� I learned quite a bit from two of them.� Including more confidence in my self, and a better understanding of my natural ability to read people's moods.� It is something that always WAS, but i never realised what a gift it truly was.� I have learned to take nothing for granted.� These lessons were long and slow and hard in coming.� As those that have been in my life, wheter as a teacher or supporter in my spiritual growth have grown further apart from each other, I began searching. Little did I know that I was really searching.� I knew that something was missing, but did not understand what.� Then in April I entered a chat room on Yahoo. A friend of mine was gung ho into the Voice Chat option, and she had been chatting in Yahoo Astrology Chat religiously for several months.� She dragged me in there one night. I hung out for a bit, but quickly became bored and went browsing. I found the Paganism Chat. So i joined a room. Randomly, the server sent me to Paganism Room 2.� There I met an entirely new group of people at such a stage in THEIR spiritual growth, that I was able to learn from and expand my beliefs into something more than just a feeling.� Then in July, I was invited to a Celtic Handfasting of two of the members of this room. I didn't know them that well at the time, but several of the people i chatted with regularly were going.� The gathering took place not 30 minutes from my home, and i was slowly talked into attending.�

I had the best time of my life.� Those that attended that handfasting, have become very near and dear to my heart.� The late Richard Sawyer was one of them.� Several of those that attended have just moved closer (two from Colorado and one from Illinois), and I am truly happy that fate arranged for me to find that room that night, and introduced me to the wonderful people that have helped me to find a part of myself I have been searching for for several years now.

Well, I think that is enough rambling and babbling for today. I completely went off on a tangent, and for those that are still with me, lol thanks for reading. Anyone who wants to know more about Asatru or Paganism in general, feel free to reply and I can drop some links. Other than that....perhaps there will eb en entry in the dream log after I have slept today....

That is apparently the word of the day here in Western, NY and most likely throughout the Eastern Coastline, as the Rainstorms travel up the coast in a ricochet effect from Hurricane Francis. 

This morning at about 7am, I looked out my Back window into the yard.  Now let me set up my yard for you for just a moment.  The land on which the house sets, is raised up higher than the land behind and to the sides of it.  Running down the right side (facing the front of the house), of the lawn is a drainage ditch, and all along the back of the first section of yard it continues until it reaches the back left corner of the lawn where it runs into a small manmade pond.  behind the drainage ditch is more of our property slowly raising at a very gradual incline until about an acre away it is about level with the house again.  So there I am looking out the window.  the ENTIRE area that is in the Lower section of the yard is flooded.  Trees looked like they were in the middle of a lake.  It was crazy.

Later, when I spoke with my Fiancé on the phone, he told me that at work, the drains in the town were backed up, and so, the drains in teh store were backed up, they weren't allowed to drain the sinks, or it woudl flood the floor, and no one could flush the toilets or wash their hands in the Bathroom.  Insanity

Isn't that what you wanted to hear about a food service area in a supermarket? ICK!

If we get much more rain we're pretty screwed, and I do hope that most of it dries up before Ivan makes its effects known up here.......

So, today, for the fourth time, I sucked it up and applied for the Assistant Prepared Foods Manager position.  I have to say that I have truly come to hate the internal application for jobs at my store.  and as for the position....how many times can you apply for the same position at the same store before you'll get it?! GOD! I mean the last time they chose the other guy over me, he got fired within 2 weeks.....the next one was fired about 2 weeks ago...he lasted about a month

I didn't apply that time....I was at a VERY low point. My self esteem needed a definite boost and my self worth was down the tubes. I needed a major kick in the ass. And, as I have already mentioned, spiritually I was a wreck.  SO....here we are with take 4.....Had an interview with the store manager and one other manager.  They seemed really positive and asked me a lot of introspective questions about how i would handle people and situations that arose in the department, as well as asking for my input on what I felt I could bring to the department myself.  SO.....looking positive this time....

EVERYONE KEEP YOUR FINGERS AND TOES CROSSED FOR ME!!! :)

Today was a day for flashbacks.  I left the Deli over a year ago.  I have been working on the front end ever since.  However, once you've been in the deli, you can never TRULY get away. I am being reintegrated into the deli.  and if all goes well....(you better still have your fingers crossed for me) I may be taking over as the manager of the department.  However, in the mean time, I work overnights up front as well as all sorts of other shifts.  Most of which do not mesh well with each other.  So....today I worked 6am - 2:30pm .  I had forgotten the hell of the deli during the first month of school and a bills game on a sunday.....

From 9:30am until almost 2pm it was NONSTOP people.  we had 5 associates in the deli waiting on customers, and we still couldnt keep up with the customers....and the presliced stuff was constantly empty....they were buying it as fast as I was slicing it.

Now, due to the nature of my normal schedule, I was all screwed up still and couldn't sleep all night long until almost 4 am and since i had to work at 6 there was no way i aws going to sleep then.  So here i am....up since 2pm the previous day.....with plans for a longish car drive after i leave work....workign a day from hell in the deli....GRRR...what an image

but it brought back memories.  I just kept laughing at little things that i remembered, like the time i accidentally slammed someone's hand in the case door....and the time i dumped an entire tray of salami on the floor....so, all in all, though it was rough on my body, it was spiritually enriching....lol...reminded me of the things i hated abtou the deli...and the things i miss......

Hope i get that position....

I did have semi good news today, however.  Apparently I interviewed well on Friday.  The manager said that they aren't sure exactly what path they are taking in regards to the asst. prep foods mgr yet, BUTthey do have "plans for me" either way. Which says to me that I at least have full tiem, since that was the side ambition.  off to catch some of the first REAL sleep in days......got some other introspective blogging to do later...lol...after sleep...although sleep depro blogging is always so fun, doncha think?

Well, at the rate we're going, I may end up with this position by process of elimination...lol

WORK....has been Hell lately.  I don't know if I blogged about the Deli on Sunday.....but if i did...just let me reitterate...

THE DELI ON A SUNDAY WHILE SCHOOL IS IN SESSION AND A FOOTBALL GAME IS GOING ON LATER THAT DAY- IS HELL REINCARNATE!!!

SO.....do all the poor overworked, underpaid and frazzled deli associates a favor next time you're there and smile, chat...and be as pleasant as possible, cuz you can guarantee they appreciate it after all the assholes they'll have visited with that day....

So this girl in the Deli, her name is Rachael.  When I met her...I did not like her, of course....first impressions are what you make of them, and since I was her DIRECT competition for the Asst Prep Foods Mngr, I don't think she was exactly eager to cultivate a joyous and personal friend relationship with me. I can understand quite a bit of how she feels;

After all, here she is, working in the deli for like 6 months or so, watching two asshole managers get fired, and being one of the most qualified, she decides to take a crack at the assistant position....then in walks Barbie (aka me) and she has more deli experience, in THIS deli, had worked in the store longer, and has the ear of the management, as well as knows what to do already.  And THIS is her competition...what the hell?! lol...I know exactly how she would feel.  Not to mention, she had NEVER worked with me before last week on Friday.  How the hell would I react? prolly try to make nice and find out whats going on.  But she was quite hostile from the start. 

And I wasn't exactly warm and fuzzy to her either....

I had some preconceived notions.  I really should know better by now.  I listened to my fiance's opinion of her personality and behavior and let it cloud my opinion before I ever met her.  Now, since she was anything but nice to me when we met, I can't say she did much to alter the opinion. Today, however, was a moment of empathy which destroyed my previously held viewpoints....it was a bonding in battle moment....I just hope it holds up in the future...

It only takes one moment in time to change a point of view.  Today, this guy who works in the deli and thinks he is hot shit was being his typical asshole self. His name is Ryan...for reference.  I was standing in the deli talking to Missland when Rachael says to Ryan, I'm gonna go take my last break. (at this point, Rachael leaves in just about 2 hours....so she's ON TIME to take the break...RYAN flips out and says something about how he wanted his lunch first, at which point Rachael said, you took a 35 minute 15, that could count as lunch...and ryan snapped, well you took like 8 hours to do the truck...and all I heard after that was BLAH BLAH BLAH.

At this point, I'm seeing red on Rachael's behalf..since I know Ryan is the biggest slacker I've ever met...he barely waits on the customers...and since right after this incident, he swore at one, I'm not so sure he's good for that anymore.

SO, I'm wandering outside with Missland, who needs to burn, and I told her...I hoped she'd talk to Rachael..cuz she looked really upset...like crying upset

Well, Rachael was in her car...so we sat outside at the picnic benches until Rachael came out....and we chatted, and made her feel better....Missland says I am NOT coming back here to deal with this shit...and Rachael says "Yeah, Barb...I'm gonna tell Don to pull my application.  You can have the position...I don't really want to deal with this...." So...at the rate we are going...I'll be default deli manager....it would be nice to win on MERIT though....lol....I suppose we'll have to see how it goes...

In other news...I don't know how well My Sunday next week blogging will be as I am working a double shift from hell....I work from 6am-2:30pm in the deli....which as we have previously discussed is a hell shift in the deli...then when I'm done I go home, sleep for 8 hours, then turn around and come back to work 11pm- 7:30am on the Front End as Overnight Cashier....I think I'm insane.

Wish me luck...and for the gods sake people, reply or soemthing! I get bored talking to Myself all the time!!!

...which truely isn't a side note at all....

If you had to take over My deli department, where no one really does the work that's supposed to be done, because they couldn't care less if it gets done, and they are all completely UNmotivated.  Every single one of them is say under 24, the department is very dirty, and the morale is low. As the new leader, what would you do to encourage the associates to work harder, and to  discourage insubordination in the troops? lol....just run with the analogy, if you will....DEFINATELY looking for some replies to this one..I have my own ideas, looking to see what you guys think though...Always helpful to have a fresh viewpoint. (keep in mind it's a union)

When was the last time you attended a Carnival of a Local Fair? We have one in my town every year on Labor Day Weekend, so I have been quite recently.  Did you ever notice how the games never change? Every year there is some form of water gun game, a pick up the ducks game, shoot the star out game, bottle toss, darts, dart posters, and ALWAYS ALWAYS the classic Goldfish Game. 

You know the one. They hand you a basket of ping pong balls, and you have about 800 chances to get one ball into a tiny tiny goldfish bowl with a poor tortured fish in it immersed in green water terrified that someone will get the ball in on his head...You hafta feel for the poor fish...lol.  And of course no matter how hard you try NOT to, you always have one stubborn ping pong ball that ends up in a  bowl by bouncing all over Hell and back...so you're stuck with what the PET STORE calls a "feeder fish" in a big clear plastic bag filled with more water than ari, and a fish that you have no bowl fr that will die before you get it home to one anyways, whether you leave immediately or ride about 60 more rides first.

I won a fish years ago.  two actually... but the one didn't make it home. He died in the car. The other, he came home with me, and I plopped him into my 2 gallon fish tank and proceeded to wait for him to die.  a month later he was still there, and teh tank was dirty....I didn't clean it.  2 months later...still there..I cleaned the tank.....6 months later, he had grown so long that he couldn't turn around int he fish tank.  I removed everything inside and got him bigger fish pellets.....6 months later, he couldnt move at all and I purchased a 10 gallon tank to hold him. I named him Henry based on a joke a friend of mine and I had in Science Class... 5 years later, I still had him. He had acquired 2 friends to try to help keep the tank clean to no avail.  A Plecostumuus about 5 inches long and 3 inches wide, we named him HOOVer for his suckign abilities...too bad all he sucked up was Henry's food and the pain off of the pillars i put in the tank for decoration, and A LARGE snail about the size of a nectarine. We named him after a song my EX used to sing abotu a snail named Herbert. Thus the trio: Henry, Herbert, and Hoover.  Henry took ill with some sort of fin and tail disease, I bought him the medication, however it didn't help and he passed on.  I think that is one of the longest Fair fish to survive in History...lol....His friends died soon after.  And I am still fishless. I don't think any fish could replace the  Super "H" Trio.....

Why on Earth would anyone want 600lbs of deli meat? WHY!? Well....for the local band geeks' parents to make subs for them to sell door to door during the annual Sub Sale! What did that 600lbs of deli meat have to do with me? Well...I had to slice half of it.  And let me tell you, no matter WHAT you're thinking ....even just HALF of that isa LOT of meat to slice...BY HAND.  IT was a special order that had to be soe many slices per pound and blah blah blah.  All I have to say now is...MY HAND hurts....my ARM hurst, my CHEST hurts, and my BACK hurts.....After completion of the overnightshift in which i sliced all this meat..I had the option of going home and beign back in 6 hours to work my evening shift in the deli. Instead, I called the guy who was supposed to start in an hour and switched shifts with him. Otherwise I woudl have gane home, been wired until about a half hour before I had to go back to work, then had to be UP until 10:30 pm instead of worign until 5:30pm then going home and being able to crash soon after that

I liked plan b. lol...however that involved a lot of heavy lifting and I generally avoided customers...I felt bad...but I was beat...my body was in definate rebellion...lol and the people i worked with understood however...

But what get's me is the poetic justice of having to slice all that meat for the Band Geeks, because, you see, I used to be one...lol...way way back in high school.....OY.....lol

ok...well....the past 2 days I just haven't felt liek blogging.. I mean i'm sure you can all figure out that I blog REALLY early in teh AM...after work...or VEWWY VEWWY late at night...AFTER WORK.....or whatever time it happens to be that is...AFTER WORK....

At any rate....work has been hell...and home has been sleep...and the in between has been run run run...so I havent had the time or inclination to blog....and now that I am, I don't really wanna talk about it...lol...

SO..cuz I know i have some faithful readers...who seem to just wonder what I had to say today....and I have a bunch of people listed as my friends and stuff....And I can tell you I only add someone if i thought their blog was interesting, or funny, or insightful, or just good writing.....Like I read Jim cuz although I'm news retarded and planning to stay that way, I enjoy reading his point of view... (yes I am somewhat informed on Politics Jim, much as I deny it...lol).  And others have just such insight into things that happen in their day to day lives....

ANYWAYS...today..>I want to know why YOU read me? Do you think my blog is funny? Were you surfing the blogs and found me by accident? Did someone have me listed as a friend and you decided to see why? Or do you just enjoy reading about the mundane activities of the Day in the Life of Barbie?

So.....over the weekend, there seemed to be a LOT of confusion...I got my Asst Prep Foods Mgr position, but other people thought somehting completely different....and one of them is someone I have to work with on a Daily basis......which if she doesn't straighten up and fly right....will mean her ass is out the door. I'm a very patient person, I will teach someone what they  need to know.  But I don't play games, and I don't borrow trouble, and someone who says one thing to yuor face, then turns around and acts like you're the worlds biggest bitch is one thing and one thing only...a kiss ass.  I don't like a kiss ass.  If you're nice to me, in general, fine, BUT....It damn well better be genuine....Grrr...

At any rate.  I got my position, however there was some confusion where another girl who also applied thought that if i screwed up, she got to take over my position.  WHICH MEANT SHE WANTED ME TO SCREW UP ANY WAY POSSIBLE.  OY.  So, my weekend was rather stressful.  So, I went to the store manager today (his name is Don). And I asked him what the deal was. I mean was I the manager, was it temporary because he WANTED us to fight over it? or what?! He shook his head, explained exactly what I thought, that it was my position it was only a temp position so i could prove myself capable since im VERY new to management, and that the other girl had m misunderstood because he had been trying to let her down easy, and she took it into a whole new realm. WHICH is what I was thinking had happened.

BUT, this whole fiasco this weekend, was enough to make me want to puke, as well as hide in my room and sleep, which I had to do more often than not anywatys, due to the fact that from midnight Thursday (ie Friday 12am) until Sunday at 2pm, I was at work for 35 hours.

And now that all that's cleared up, I'm going to get some REAL rest..where I'm not dreaming abotu stupid brunette bitches who tell people im a royal bitch when I'm not around.  People who've known me for years and already know I'm NOT a bitch mind you. Have a Happy Wed!

Well reader!....It's nice to see you again...lol....

I had a very weird night....starting with the relief of the guy at work who pisses me off being too busy to bother me...THANK THE GODS! And then there was a guy who left his wallet at one of my self scanning registers.  I had planned to drive to his house in the morning to return it if he hadn't show up by the end of my shift.  Luckily he called and returned for it, since I couldn't remember EXACTLY where south union road was.  CRAP!!! gotta run! BLOG the rest later!

UGH...I think the blood suckers found me.....

They have been stalking me for as long as I have been working too many hours, stressed tot he max and barely functioning.  As you all know I've been pushing it for a while....between work, home , planning a wedding...and trying to get in sleep......I haven't had much success.  Lately I've been feelign the burn out and contemplating quitting everything and going far far away to a cave in the mountains where no one can bug me.....about ANYTHING!

So Saturday....they caught me. drained everythign out of me, and inserted phlegm.....enter the flu bug....BOO!

Yes, you read right the flu.  Influenza. I think I'm the first person I know who got it. Lucky me.  I'm sure that everyone wants to go to work and puke....but what if you went to work, puked, and they threatened your job if you left?.  Seeing as how I was working in a FOOD SERVICE DEPARTMENT...it was technically ILLEGAL for me to be there...

Anyways.  I'm still sick....The Flu Meds are helpin though....And then my "cousin" came to visit 2 weeks early......That just topped me off I think.  I'm not sure, btu I'm goign to vote that my body is tryign to tell me something...like..I'M SHUTTING DOWN!

"What day is it? Could you please tell me? What day is it? I'm confused, you see...."

It's getting worse.  Each day I start the day and Can't remember what day it is, or how much I need to accomplish in each day. Since I'm basically slept the past 4 days away when I wasn't working....I'm lucky I know what day it is. I'm considering calling in tomorrow.  But I really can't afford to.  So I definately need to get my sleep tonight. Not be sitting online staring at a shining screen at 5 am. knowing that I have to work in 4 hours....UGH....I'm sure that's where I'll be though.

I'm going back to bed, NOW while I have the chance, and no one will bother me.  We can order invitations tomorrow, or Friday mom...........just need some sleepies....

Where is my digital? Why can't I find my digital?! It's been missing for almost 4 months now. And I'm severely irritated....lol... <br>
This is one of those things that you would have to SEE to believe. But, I will tell you about it anyways.  <br>

Sometime last year, I got into the Holiday Spirit.  Probably partly because it drove my supervisor absolutely crazy; seeing the stupid things I cudl come up with, and partly because i wanted to see how far I could push him before he told me to stop.  Stopping never happened by the way. So, last year for the whole month of October, I wore these black puffy sparkle ball bat antennae on my head, a bat pin, and had a bat pen; all matching.  I bought them at the Dollar Brite next door.  They were the cutest things.<BR>

Well, after that, it became something of an obsession.  On Halloween I wore my Civil War Reenactment Outfit.  Then for Thanksgiving, I think I found a Turkey Antennae.   Then I began Christmas with Santa Hats, Reindeer Antlers, and Various Antennae I found at the Local Dollar stores, as well as Pens for the occasions I could find. For Christmas Eve Day, on which I had to work, I determined I would have to do something more extrodinary than the Santa hat or the Blinking Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer Nose and Antlers (from the year before when I had worked in the Deli). After all, Everyone and their Brother had on a Santa Hat.  So, I dressed up as A Christmas Tree No joke.  I wore this Cable Knit Forest Green sweater, and bought 3 packages of Battery operated Christmas Lights.  I strung them throught he INSIDE of the sweater, pushing them through the knits, i boguht a box of tinsel and wound that around me, I put glitter all over my face, and hung small glass gold ball ornaments on the sweater also....and to top it off...my crowning glory......I wound my hair into a TIGHT TIGHT bun at the TOP of my head.....then  screwed a christmas tree star into it and wrapped tinsel around the bun.  So I even had a star on the top of my Christmas Tree.  The customers loved it.  Nothing I did after could top that...lol...

For New Years, I wore a Blue and Silver Crown.... For Easter Bunny ears, and Tail....and I have a set of antennae for the 4th and other patriotic holidays.

Why am I talking about this?  Because, today I was at Dollar Brite again. I bought somethign for the upcoming Halloween. I may not get to wear it, bu ti bought it because it was SOOOO cute. Similar to Last year's Bat antennae, made from the puff balls, I bought a Black cat antennae. Where is my digital when I need it? It has little felt ears, and a pipe cleaner tail. and little gem eyes. It is the CUTEST thing....lol... I also boguht a new holiday pen, and pin, and scrunchie....I love holidays....An excuse to dress upa nd look stupid..just cuz you can.

I've just spent forever uploading a new program with some smileys...when all i need to do is subscribe to livejournal...lol...but anyways...

Mood:      EXCITED

    Well, this weekend is going to be a bit hectic... until Sun afternoon when I will crash and sleep for hours on end .....I worked close tonight....but my closer called in, so it was only me....and closing by myself...took me until Midnight....with someone who helped me at 11pm, or i woulda been there until closer to 1am.

   So that was fun anyways...lol.   Now I am home, and rather awake.  But I need to get sleep, because I have a full day tomorrow.  I start work at 9:30am-6pm, then I'm off to a Party in Pavilion at 7 ...picking up 2 others on the way...which I will be late for....due to the time i get out of work, vs. changing time and pickup time and distance for driving....ect....I have no idea how late I will be there.....

   Then I get to work at 6am on Sunday morning.  And Sunday will be death day in the Deli.  Since there is a Bill's game at 1pm.   We'll be getting our collective butts kicked; Me, Rachael, and Molly.   UGH.  So Sunday will suck....then i get to go home and sleep...and not have to work until Monday Overnight....which is : way to screw with the sleep patterns...YAY!.. 

Mood: Feeling Rather Chatty , Busy , and Overwhelmed    , and WIDE AWAKE

Uh oh.....I didn't catch any Sleep tonight... ... OPHELIA! Since you are now sleeping..it must be YOUR fault I'm not.  Well I work in a couple hours, and I need to shower, I feel a bit scuzzy.... , and a bit naseaus....must be the leftover flu bug.... .

  At any rate....I'm using my facial now....in preparation for this evening....gotta remember to take a cloth to wash my face with after work...and my toothbrush...lol..

   Then off to the SEX TOY PARTY!!!!!! Sex Toys 

  GET READY TO PARTY!!!!!  

Mood:  excited...  and tired.... 

Well...I THOUGHT all the drama had ended....

I was wrong.  Today, I worked Deli again...and although I was "technically" in charge.....nothing exciting happened there.....I came home, looking foreward to a nice quiet evening with the little one...some movies...snuggles...SLEEP......

The Phone Rings.

It's my fiance.  He's blubbering something about falling and broken legs....and stairs and is father.....I was PLENTY confused. Then he says; "And Maria Collapsed". So I'm like...WHAT?

Turnes out.  his BROTHER fell about 40 ft out of a tree he was cutting the branches off of in preparation for chopping/knocking it down.

He is at the Hospital ER as I write this.  At the time which we left, he had been there for the better part of 3 hours, and they said that nothign was broken. He most likely, from his pain and where and how it hurts; pulled the tendons in his pelvis. OW! Maria, is his wife.  She is also an RN, and about 4 months pregnant.  So, after keeping her husband talking and making sure he wasn't concussed and all that, when they loaded him up into the ambulance, she passed out right after complaining of cramping. 

Another Mr. Toad's Wild Rider for the Ambulance.  She also was hauled off in the Loud White box. 

Stress and Shock say the dr's

Really? NO WAY! Her Husband is int he SAME hospital, in the trauma unit, and you think she had cramping and a black out from stress? Nah.... Craziness.

And so, I now sit and await the phone call that will update me as to the current status of my future Brother- in - Law.

Mood: Sad,     and Sleepy

Well, it turns out that; Brenden broke some ribs.....and some vertabrea, and slipped a disk, and he punctured his lung with his ribs, and scraped his liver also.  He'll be ok...so long as no other complicatons appear in the next few days at least...........

   Off to Work.....and driving my friend to and from work for a few days cuz she is having car trouble.....AGAIN....

Mood:  SICK  and   Tired

Well the Wedding Guests are Finalized....

the "A" List, AND the "B" List and the "ANNOUNCEMENTS" List....

I am SOOOO  Happy to have that out of the way...

Next task to Tackle.  Calling the photographer and booking her.....followed by figuring out how many females vs. males I have attending and ordering my favors.  At this time, I have already got my wedding party gifts.  But damn, I now have one too many..>SHIT!  Ahh well...a souvenir I guess...lol...

A Bride's work is never done...

Mood: Relieved    and Ready for Sleep

ok....so...blah blah blah.....this is my blah blah moment before I head to work. I had a migraine most of the day. I'm really feeling like shit, and i wish I had called in this afternoon BEFORE I had to work. 

I'm gonna go get dressed now.  Have a great night everyone...I'll tell you all about how much migraines SUCK tomorrow...lol....

Mood: HEADACHE    and TIRED  and CRABBY

Today's plan....

1.) BLOG

2.) Order Unity Candles,

3.) Order Invitations

4.) Order Favors

5.) straighten desk.....maybe its time to file the bills....hmmm....

6.) blog again

OHOHOH! Ophelia's sister FINALLY had the BABY...well she's in labor...YAY!

Mood: Excited    and Busy...

Cows With Guns

Well, it's not EXACTLY what I want, but it's good enough for now....

How do we like the New interface?

I'll be intermittently working on it over the next few weeks, now that I have PSP all installed.

Off to work now...blog more later......

I START MANAGEMENT TRAINING ON TUESDAY!!! YAY!!!

Mood:  Giddy,   Excited, and  Off to Work...

The Tiara....LOL..... YOU GUYS have been keeping me so busy replying to your posts, that i ALMOST forgot to post today's wedding tidbit ...lol...

Which woudl have been a REAL REAL shame since I gt it in the mail today.....along with a few other things....like the flower girl dresses....

Mood: EXCITED AND GIDDY !

Today, is ONE YEAR on the NOSE from my wedding day!  Next year at this time of the day I'll be having bridal jitters,   trying to make sure my bridesmaids have their schedule's locked in,  yelling at brina for being late,   calling around to find last minute things,   and taking my morning shower... .(I have a 5:00pm wedding....) I will update throughout the day what I would be doing at various times next year. lol...Could prove interesting reading....  

Mood: EXCITED     AND HAPPY 

With all the work I've been doing on the wedding lately, I completely forgot about the fact that I never updated about my job.  It turned out that I got the position....and I've been training this week.  Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday (tomorrow).  It's been very interesting to see how the other stores operate...and what an idiot my boss is.  Well, at least I know that it's not just me that feels that the way we do things at my store is back-asswards.......Hmmm.....But I will tell you, I have my work cut out for me upon my return to MY store.....Betweenthe mess teh department is, and the fact that a few of the closers are as UNINTERESTED in working as they can get....I think I'm screwed before I begin.  Add into that the the woman running the show right now can do her damndest to fuck me up and I have a real delima.....I may just have to go over her head.....FAR over her head.....

Mood: COLD  ,  DRAINED  , and FRUSTRATED 

I don't really have anything special to blog about today.... ...I'm probably having goldfish chicken noodle soup for lunch.  And then either a sandwich or a sweedish meatballs meal for supper.....while at work...yucky work.... 

And then....I get to clean the deli....and fun shit like that.....I hope 1 hour is enough time for me to make up a list...hmmm...I better start now......

Mood: STRESSED    and BORED

Just wanted to take this moment to wish  EVERYONE a Happy Sweetest Day!

AND if you are a BOSS.....

HAPPY
BOSS'
DAY!

Mood: LOVEY DOVEY    and INDUSTRIOUS 

LINK to her BLOG--- LINK

A very merry unbirthday to me.

To who?

 To me.

 Oh you!

 A very merry unbirthday to you.

Who, me?

Yes, you.  Now blow the candle out, my dear and make your wish come true!

A very merry unbirthday to you!

Clean cup, clean cup! Move down!

Clean cup, clean cup, move down, move down, clean cup, clean cup, move down!

A friend had this in her blog...lol...I took it on a whim...I had to share....

You are Fish 'Tacos.' You might think you're
exotic and worldly-wise, but in reality you're
just a bunch of crap on toast. Repeat after
me: 'just because you put something in
quotation marks doesn't make it so.' And
'taco' isn't Spanish for 'toast.'

What Weight Watchers recipe card from 1974 are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Mood: tired    and quiet

At the moment I am SOOOOOO incredibly overwhelmed by my new job......

Not truly a big shock.

I really knew it was going to be a lot of work....but.....

THIS IS RIDICULOUS!

If the stupid fat bitch who i work for had BOTHERED to do HER job before I came along, I wouldn't have weeks worth of rampant stupidity to make up for.....

GRRRRRRRRRRR......

So for now, I sit here, buried in papers...and paperWORK.  While I'm AT HOME.....and not being paid for this. Grrrr...

However, it is important for me to prove that I can do my job better than the woman I work for.  Which, I am discovering, with help from others (who are willing to help me) is proving rather simple considering the LACK of job she has been doing......

Off to file and record bills........

Mood: Aggravated    , Confused    , Determined    , and   Tired

I am updating my blog so that I can go back and edit it. I want to see if the message will stay at the time it was origionally sent....

I dunno....did it? lets find out?

So...the weekend kinda blew......OH YEAH!.....

   Between Ryan the asshole goiong off on me because he's on some major drugs and wigs out at least once a week.....and Rachel having a little temper tantrum yesterday over me leaving the department...LIKE I DONT HAVE TO LEAVE TO ORDER OR TAKE CARE OF STUFF AS THE MANAGER! OY....

   So, tonight was like relaxation night for me.  I worked with Troy.  Who is very young. I guess he's in college now, but he SEEMS really naive.  He's nice though. Not the most diligent and thorough cleaner or anything, but he took care of all the work while I did some deep cleaning in the Cheese department.  It was really really really GROSS.    I mean i found a LOT of mold. And I'm not even talking about the cheese....lol. OK bad joke. 

   At any rate, My deli is reorganized, the cheese department is now clean, and i have written new work lists for the night kids...and I have when I need to do things all figured out and well in hand.....  

   SO... What's left for me?    Mastering Ordering, I guess.  I thoguht I had it down, BUT... On Sunday, the day from hell...I overdid it a bit. I was in a hurry because I was getting out late, and I didn't go thtough the case and cooler like i had been doing and I overordered.   

Well, I'll work on it.  I think I'm going to start by writing Sunday's order for Tuesday on Saturday and then all I have to do is enter it into the system.  Less stress. Sunday's are stressful days, so the less I have to do at work on Sunday the better! 

  SOO. Off to sleep and Dream of cheese..  .lol....and what I'm going to order for Friday....

Mood: Sleepy  , Optimistic , and Snuggly 

So.....

   Last night went ok. I was in a relatively good mood.  Got a lot of my work done and stuff.  Cleaned the yucky cheese department,  was feeling a sense of accomplishment,   and not feeling to shitty about things...had a really quiet not stressful day...and then BAM ....the other shoe dropped today... The clutch went on my car.

    So, the man had to drive me to work... got it towed to the shop, and it SHOULD be done tomorrow...if not Friday....BUT....the only problem with this deal is that I have no way to GET to my car tomorrow....even is it IS fixed...isn't that a conundrum though? 

    Other than that....the day wasn't too bad....the guy i worked with tonight is supposed to work tomorrow night, but when Barb M wrote the schedule she fuct up,   and he can't work Thursday nights cuz he has Bowling.. ....and I can't go in cuz I'm carless, and it's My ONLY day off this week...until Wed of next week. ..and the other girl who had off...has religion class, or something....personally I think it's just an excuse.

   At any rate...off to see about a game of pool or cards or something on Yahoo.....maybe I'll blog later.... 

Mood: Melancholy    , but Optimistic

OK....I KNOW you've all been DYING to steal my smiley program....so....I have a link to it all zipped up right and tight.......here you go.....

CLICK ME FOR GET SMILE

And I will post a bunch of my smilie's here also so you can drag and drop them to the image window....lol...so if you're really keen on stealing yahoo's smileys...lol here we go....

Christmas Smileys

Halloween Smileys

Part of the Adult Smiley's Package....I won't include them all here....since some of them are REALLY X rated...lol

And thats all for me...off to pick up the fiance from work...cuz my car's not fixed yet... 

Mood: Irritated    , but Resigned

  Whatever you call it...I hope you all have a good time. .and enjoy any parties you attend. ....

and have a Howloween   Spooktacular !

Lately, I've been very crabby. When I say crabby I mean; irrationally moody, unpersonable, short tempered, irritible,  and completely drained.  I feel drained physically and mentally.  I've been very depressed also lately.  I am beginning to wonder what is causing it.  I hadn't noticed it until just the past week or so.  Before that I was tired and feelign a little bit harried, btu i hadn't noticed the depression until now.  I have probably been depressed for about 2 months now.  But, the lack of sleep going on between working all the strange hours and being an insomniac since my body wasn't sure WHEN it was time to sleep....I put it all down to that.  I seem to be putting all the energy i HAVE into work, and there's really nothing left when I'm done, for projects I have to complete, for shopping for new shoes, for balancing the checkbook, for spending time with my daughter, for my fiance....

All I do when I'm not working, is sleep, or sit in my comfy chair and zone out. 

I definately noticed the depression today.  I was in a very down mood.  I can pretend otherwise for a while, but it caught up with me later in the evening....  Usually, I can buy something cheesy, or a new item of clothing to perk myself up, but even the buttons with the blinking light eyes didn't cheer me up today.  Nor did the shirt i bought last Thursday, which is the perfect color blue....it really brings out my blue eyes, makes my pale skin look natural, and highlights my red hair....it looks fantastic...but....it didnt make me happy...I'm also not really feelign like using smileys in my blog today.  Barely feel like blogging, however, this is my exercise in discipline each day.  I took my small hiatus last weekend....and now i have to get back to it.  Well....Happy Halloween all.....perhaps on Tuesday when I visit the Gynocologist, they can shed some light on the problem.....it could be a severe hormonal depression....hmmmm....

Mood: Depressed   , and  Tired

My dream blog will now be known as my "Magick" blog....lol I am goign to be posting there with anything experience related to out of the ordinary occurances....etc You can check it out and become one of the "in" people to view my blog there if you wish...just check it out and reply to today's message and I will add you so that future posts are viewable to you..........

My "Book of Shadows"

SO...today is my day off, and i am going back to the gym...for the FIRST time.....IM scared....lol....Wish me luck...I have a reprogramming appointment today.....since I have to start all over after 5 months....UGH...and BOY i have gained weight...a LOT during the past 3 months....ugh....

off to torture..........

 Tonight I did a video tape for Yoga called Yoga PM.
It has a series of moves simple and basic, as unstrenuous as possible meant to relax the mind AND body before going to bed for the night.
It ends in a completely prone position legs shoulder width apart, arms out to the sides, full body relaxed.  VERY soothing. 
I am also attempting to get my daughter into doing my yoga with me every night.  She is 4.  and VERY energetic, which makes the whole idea seem amusing, however........
Tonight, she did it with me....not as calmly as she could have.....but she did do most of the moves with wandering off and babbling in between..... then finished at teh end with me.
When I put her to bed just after, she went without protest.  Brushed her teeth, took her medicine, and we read a story which she picked out and relaxed in bed no problems...even went to sleep by herself without protest..
Almost every other night...there are constant complaints...but tonight...she went right to sleep.....i think we'll be doign it every night together....when im not working the night shift....tomorrow we'll have to do the morning one....cuz i have to work the evening shift

I also went to the gym and used the elliptical...which...now that I'm writing this...makes me realize how little i did....lol..but I guess I need to get back into it slowly...hmmm....perhaps not as slowly as I am though...lol

I am in the process of taking the gym aerobics schedule and determinging which classes I can conceiveably make each week based upon my working schedule.....

I am DETERMINED to attend the classes also...Althoguh I may need encouragement from outside sources..........off to plan-o-gram the work out schedule today...

Mood: RELAXED  and Ready for SLEEP

LOL...ok well...I'm about to leave for work...buying a new tarot deck...and meeting friends afterwards....lots of fun fun yay...:)

 I definately am sticking with the yoga...it's working well for me...and it seems to work for my daughter as well.. i think she needs something to ground her so she's not as wild...this could be ok for now at any rate.....

Off to work I go...WHOOHOO.....

Mood: Content

Well...It's official..I suck.    I didn't make it to the gym this morning....i ended up staying out WAY too late last night.   I didn't get home until 3am.  But some of the arguments i had going on are better...which is good cuz that will help with the crabbyness factor...

I've just been really moody..and pissy and just plain depressed.   Everything has been more of a pain in the ass than it was worth....

So, yesterday....I didn't get the tarot deck I wanted. ....they didn't have it...at either of the stores i went to.  I guess it is an older deck, so they aren't carrying it. I'm going to order it online today.  I owe my mom lits of monies...ick..it rather sucks.. ..I have to get to the bank before i spend too much of my money.

At work....my "superior" left almost as soon as she got there because her daughter supposedly attempted suicide....not sure if it's true or not.. .but she left and lied to our manager...who is now VERY annoyed with her. .... My fiance keeps blowing her in for the stupid shit she has been doing.  I have been advised to call our DM and talk to him about her.....because no one int he store seems to be able to do anythign about her. but she is a serious problem....ugh....

Well, I'm off to Rochester for the day....visiting the in-laws....lol...Scooby Doo 5 screening today....i wonder what this one is about....(long story...it's a parody....) lol...Have a great one everybody.

Mood: Optimistic  ,  Content

Well, I found out that my best friend has been lying to me.   Apparently, it is time to end the friendship.  She has changed quite a bit in the past year. and she seems less stable.  I don't know if that is the right word to use.  I suppose I simply can't take the drama anymore.    In the past year, I feel that I have more than my fair share of drama, between my future brother in law falling out of the tree, my back, the new babies, work, my daughter's unending escapades......

It's a lot ot handle....and I seem to be getting a LOT of crap on the same day.  Well, I need sleep...I think I'll have to meditate on what to do about her now that I know for sure that she was lying....

Mood: Let Down

So...I went to a sex toy party tonight.   and i bought more toys...ugh....

lol....some for me...at the previous party, i bought a vibrator/dildo...lol...More INFO than NEEDED im sure...lol.... .

and at this one i bought some enhancements......like a cock ring..YAY

at the last one I was at i purchased this stuff called "Silky Sheets".   it's supposed to make the sheets feel smoother....and it smells like whatever scent you pick (mine is musk), and it has pheromones in it.....you know the hormones thingies that attract the opposite sex...lol.

I think that by the time I'm done A*** will be running for the door in fear of the toys.

OH...and today I bought a bath mitt.  It's like a massage mitt for the bath, you put some soap on it or some lube or something...and its gooey plastic and has massager fingers....little plastic nubbs.  One side has short ones that are harder and the other side has softer ones that are longer. we'll have to test it out, and I'll tell you how it is....lol...

ON other notes.....B**** is seemingly back to normal.....except for that white lie   i don't know how to deal with.....grrr....

I've missed the gym for a few days...except for my appointments....gonna do my yoga now... YOGA and then i'll go to sleep ... working at 8:30am....ick....night all.

Mood: Tired , and Ready for sleep

blahblah blah blah blah.....ill put somethign in ehre when i get home...gotta drive my dad to get his car....

Today is Brina's Birthday!!!  

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This blog entry is for artistandgirl, whose Birthday is TODAY! YAY!!!

  BIRTHDAY SPANKINGS!!!!!

                          
Happy Birthday!!!
Go visit her blog and wish her Happy Birthday!!! 

AHHHHHH so i haven't blogged in 2 days..and only 4 poeple answered my survey...you guys suck!!!

I have to go to sleep soon...btu im in the middle of dealing with an emotional wreck of a friend who just happens to be suicidal...and I don't know what to say to help him.....

when the people who need to help him are LIVING with him....

Grrr....

Also.....I NEED to go to sleep cuz I'm planning on going to a 6:15AM pilates class..which I will never make if im not in bed before 12:30am

and this problem is going to take longer than 15 minutes to fix...

OH....on a happier note..I got my other new tarot deck today. SO now I have both of them...YAY!

Grrr....people are making this harder than it needs to be....

I'm going to have to call Krys and Wenchy tomorrow....cuz this is just not good....

Uhmm....the gym thing is NTO going good cuz i keep getting screwed out of going.....like this tomorrow morning thing..i mean if you have 5 hours of sleep...woudl YOU go to the gym? yeah i didn't think so...

If tomorrow morning....instead of waking up in your normal room on October
14, 2004...you woke up in England, as a wealthy lady or gentleman (your full
status is negligible)...on October 14, 1794.....with full memory of your
previous time....and everyone else is there too(family/friends...)....cuz we all woke up the
same today.....what would you miss from 2004.....OTHER than Modern Plumbing
(ie: no toilets or showers or sinks...etc.)???

I would miss Modern Medicine.....and tampons.....

and i already had the later in my mind....the former,  i give courtesy to you guys for....

I wouldn't miss my car. I wouldn't misswomen's lib. Hell I'd rather stay at home give birth to kids and gossip with my friends all day long.  Not to mention the clothes. I LOVE the clothes.  People were LESS Obese...due to the lack of fried food and fast food I'd say. Not to mention dancing for like 5 hours almost EVERY night during the "Little Season".  Horse back riding woudl cause better muscle development.  and yeah corsets suck...BUT....look what they do for your posture and figure....

I'm blogging today to tell everyone....that BUDMOTORSPORT said that I am a fat cow and that I'm unattractive to men..because I have too much JUNK in the trunk...and im sure there are more reasons too...

so im mad at you rob! and I'm not speaking to you cuz I'm a fat cow and you're a meany poop.

Today was pretty cool.... I went on a road trip with a friend .  She and I have been a bit drifted apart lately.....

As in arguing over things that I...at this point, am not sure were even valid or existing.  I think that we were both too stressed at the same time...and we were amking mountains out of mole hills.  There ARE things we need to work through. But....I think we're ont eh road tot hat. We shared some thigns we haven't spoken about in ....years even.

I think that is part of why I have been as hostile as I have been to her.  She talks to other people about these things, but she and I used to be confidantes and we talked about all this stuff...and compared beliefs and steps we were taking in our growth....then all of a sudden one day....she just stopped....

So feeling uncomfortable....because I knew her man knew a LOT LOT LOT more than I .....I stopped also....not wanting her telling him everything I said ...and thinking..hey maybe they are sitting there laughing at what I think..because it's so stupid....

Of course, in the past year or so...I think I've spoken to Markus more about spiritual stuff than delencrie....which...in retrospect seems odd, since by telling HER i was in effect telling HIm and it was HIM laughing at me that bothered me.....However...maybe I am now at the poitn where I don't want HER laughing at what I percieve as the way to do things....cuz she is so far ahead of me now.....

But today....we talked....REALYL talked...about things and steps...and how much we know....not so much as coudl have...but I think we are both feeling our way back into this....with BABY steps....

THANK THE GODS though that I can FINALLY talk to SOMEONE i'm REALLY REALLY close to about all this.....instead of blogging to people who will most likely never meet me IRL.....hmmm....nto that i woudlnt want to you guys...just...frustrating..nto being able to tell my best friend things...you know?

OK....I stole this one from Opheliaminuit....

You are a Random cat! Also known as an alley cat
or a mutt. You aren't given to high-falutin'
ways, but you're accessible and popular.
People love you for who you are, not what you
are.

What breed of cat are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

A - Age : 25.
B - Band listening to right now: The Sounds of Silence

C - Crush: Aric...duh

D - Dad's name: Ronald
E - Easiest person to talk to: Rob
F - Favorite band at the moment: Indigo Girls
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Bears
H - Hometown: Buffalo, NY
I - Instruments: Flute, Piano, some Clarinet, Recorder, Fife, Melody Flute, Pan Pipes, Bolivian Flute, Tin Whistle.....I know there are more in that bag...btu I haven't played them in a while....

J - Jacks or Lincoln Logs?: Lincoln Logs 
K - Kids: Desiree -4
L - Longest car ride ever: Drove myself to Newport News, VA....then left the next morning to go to Charlotte, NC.....
M - Mom's name: Carol
N - Number of siblings: Biological: unknown... Adoptive: 3 sisters, all married.....3 soon to be brothers-in-law, all married.
O - Outside or Inside: Outside

P - Phobia[s]: Spiders; Falling, Bridges

Q - Favorite Quote: "Do not try and bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead, simply try to realize the truth." "What truth?" "There is no spoon.  Then you will see it's not the spoon that bends, it is merely yourself."

R - Reason to smile: My daughter snuggling up to me at night
S - Song you sang last: Sounds of Silence
T - Time you wake up: as late as possible.
U - Unknown fact about me: uhmmm....I'm an open book.
V - Vegetable you hate: Tomatos
W - Worst habit: Messy Room
X - X-rays you've had: cat scan, chest x-ray, ankle, back, apendix area....i think thats it...cant think of anymore.

Y - Yummy food: Bean Casserole, Chicken Cordon Bleu, Pretzel Stix
Z - Zodiac sign: Cancer

THIS is what I thought i should have gotten.....

Your Beauty lies in Dreams. Day-dreamer, creative and forever lost in thoughts. You're a dreamer, wanting more in your life than you have now. Though you a lot of your dreams never seem to leave your own mind. You've created your own little world inside that head of yours and you're most beautiful when your mind is in the clouds with sparkles in your eyes. You'd rather be asleep than awake and people find it hard to have long conversations with you as you mind often wanders and you aren't a big fan of reality. You are long and almost child-like probably with a great love for Fantasy or Science Fiction. You're very creative and most likely love to write wonderful stories or draw and even sing, anything creative that you can use that vast imagination of yours. You're a bit of a puzzle to people love to wonder as to what is going in your mind.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element: Water, Wind Animal: Eagle Color: Purples, Blues, Pinks, Misty Colors Song: Imaginary by Evanescence Expression: Blank Stare

Gemstone: Rose Quartz Mythological Creature: Unicorn, Fairy Sign: Cancer Planet: Saturn Hair Color: Strawberry Blonde Eye Color: Violet

Quote: "I lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple skies fly over me."

THIS is what I really got.......

Your Beauty lies in Mystery. Captivating, mysterious and alone. You
are the girl in the little black number that no one seems to know, the eternal
mystery girl. You make it a point to never let anyone know more about you than
you want them to and do a very good job of it. You're there one minute and
gone the next leaving them in wonder of who you really are. A mature and normally
calm individual, quiet and enjoy spending many hours of the day on your own,
most likely preferring night to day . You love the dark and some may find you a
bit strange. You seem to be rather distant and cold making hard for people to
get close to you, though you probably like the distance they usually keep. You
probably wear make-up, but concentrate more around your eyes than anything.
You know the effect you have and enjoy keeping people in wonder.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element: Dark, Water Animal: Panther Color:
Black, Maroon, Dark Tones Song: In The Shadows by The Rasmus
Expression: Sly Smile

Gemstone: Black Diamond Mythological Creature: Demon,
Vampire Sign: Scorpio Planet: Venus Hair Color: Black Eye Color: Garnet

Quote: "In the shadows for all time."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie?
brought to you by Quizilla

MAYBE i was just in a dark mood when I took the quiz? hmmmm.....

Hmmmmm.lets see....I have spent the past few days  blogging about....ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!

So that was exciting and all.....lol...but I think I'll try talking about reality for a few minutes.   OK...at work....the bitch I work for had me written up for coming in late ....a couple of different days.....all of which I had called in advance for and spoken to someone about WHY and what was going on....however, since I didn't speak to an OVERHEAD manager , MY direct manager can write me yup and act like no one knew what was going on and I just chose not to come in on time.   It's really irritating.  

I was supposed to be taking a trip today.  TO Syracuse...which is about a 3- 3 1/2 hour drive.  Which with my friend and I would have been a nice road trip.      We haven't taken a trip like that in a while. I mean we went to Pavilion a week or so ago, but thats not really the same as a LONG 6 hour car drive....well then the person I was supposed to meet in Syracuse....who is in Kingston, wanted me to go further to meet her...to ALBANY!    I mean 3 hours is fine...but when we go beyond the realm of 5 hours...it gets irritating...and I WOULD like to spend a FEW hours with my little girl once in a while.  OY.    So that's my weekend. 

At the moment, I am about to embark on a glorious adventure, taking my mom to the store to run errands and buy xmas presents.    followed by the question of whether or not i want to drive to Pavilion for an invasion of the wenchy/wolvie/demented      house with my little one and Krys and Urky.    hmmmm....

And i really DID want to have a road trip with miss delencrie...maybe I'll call and see what time practice is and if she has time for a whort road trip instead of going to pavilion for dinner.  Much as i would like to see them all...I think i just need the driving thing right now.  Pack the munchkin in the car and GO.......ya know?  

Off to begin my adventures with a SHOWER!  TATA!

 Mood: Contemplative   and Rushed 

Unique, mystical, insightful and beautiful
You are a Snow sprite.
Mysterious, and alluring you naturally attract people to you,
your like a people magnet
even though you most often wish to be alone.
Your love for cold climates and snow
has given you an insight into the beauty few see.
While most see bland white you see a forest
or blanket of sparkling white beauty.
To you life is something precious
and you intend to figure out its mysteries.
You are very mature and don't waste your intelligence
on childish games or people not worth your time
which can make you seem arrogant at times
but you are really just intent on saving your time for better things.
Your soul is very beautiful if not a little shut up,
you keep your emotions hidden from everyone
and therefore they don't know what your capable of.
You are a living fantasy.

.::=What type of mythical Sprite are you?=::. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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I stole this from skittles

FIRSTS
First best friend: Jessie

First car: Red 84 Toyota Camry
First real kiss: CJ on the Ferris Wheel

First break-up: CJ.....it was not a pretty one...

First screen name: ladydhampyre

First self purchased album: GOD...i don't remember. Prolly Alanis Morisette, Jaged Little Pill

First funeral: my great uncle on my mother's side

First pets: Charlie the cat, and Bear the Dog
First piercing/tattoo: ears 3x each

First credit card: Discover and HSBC

First true love: Joe.

First enemy: Anna Lauria

First big trip: Prolly one of the many to VA...OR  my trip to Cayman Islands

First music you remember hearing in your house: Elvis, and Xmas music

LASTS
Last car ride: Drove to Avon......just cuz
Last kiss: Aric prolly.....like yesterday sometime..

Last good cry: its been a while.....
Last library book checked out: Been a while...I'm not allowed to take library books out....I had a $500 fine....
Last movie seen: Fools Rush In
Last beverage drank: Milk at Supper

Last food consumed: Some kind of pasta stew stuff my mom made

Last crush: Current and Forever Aric

Last phone call: Ophelia....who WOKE ME UP!

Last time showered: Uhmmm....lets not talk abtou this one..I feel like such a grunge...
Last shoes worn: Black boots
Last item bought: Hot Chocolate at work at 3am
Last annoyance: Migraine

Last time wanting to die: are we talking embarassment?

Last time scolded: Like 5 seconds ago about my Car payment....as i was filling this out

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your best friends? Aric, delencrie, ophelia, and mpp11

02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Engaged

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop? Prolly Walmart....gotta buy those fish and the yarn
02. any tattoos or piercings? Ears 3x...didnt we do this part already?

s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs? only the legal perscription kind

02. what kind of shampoo do you use? Aussie Mega
03. what are you most scared of? Spiders...heights

04. what are you listening to right now? The Rankin-Bass movie Jack Frost
05. where do you want to get married? At my Church

06. how many buddies are online right now? which messenger?

            Yahoo: 19/175

            AIM:   16/164

07. what would you change about yourself?. my hips

f a v o u r i t e s
01. color: Blue
02. food: Hot Dogs
03. boys' names: Donovan, Damien, Domonick
04. girls' names: Desiree, Desdemona, Freyja, Esmerelda
05. subjects in school: Languages, Computers

06. animals: Im a Cat person
07. sports: to watch: figure skating, diving, and gymnastics....Im such a girl! to DO: swimming, diving....dont have access to anything else

08. perfume: MUSK.  White Musk, and Dior's Poison, also...Paris
09. cologne: MUSK, Polo Sport

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath? I have a 4 yr old...what do YOU think?

02. smoked? On occasion
03. bungee jumped? I'd barf

04. made yourself throw up? Nopers
05. skinny dipped? Yup...
06: ever been in love? Course

07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? I've never MADE myself cry....
08. pictured your crush naked? ROFLMAO...I've SEEN my crush naked!

09. actually seen your crush naked? yupyup

10. cried when someone died? Of course..>I've cried when people died in movies...HELL I cried when my mom bought me a COAT!

11. lied? haven't we all?
12. fallen for your best friend? not exactly

13. been rejected? Yup
14. rejected someone? Without knowing it...

15. used someone? not intentionally

16. done something you regret? yup....but i got a monkey out of it....

c u r r e n t
clothes: gym pants, white socks, a t-shirt, sports bra, and a big bulky sweatshirt...im bumming

music: nada at the moment
make-up: nothing...im BUMMING
annoyance: My daughter....she keeps changing her mind on what movie to watch
smell: I can't smell anything....I'm stuffed up....in fact i just sneezed

favorite artist: Boris Vallejo for modern art, and Waterhouse for Classic art

desktop picture: Some blue fairy
book your reading: Amanda Quick, Late for the Wedding
cd in player: nothing...a mix in teh car CD player

dvd in player: Jack Frost, the Rankin-Bass movie
color of toenails: Nothing

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: My neice when I put her in my bed

hugged: my daughter...

you imed: Wenchy!
you kissed: Didn't you ask me this already? Lol.

a r e | y o u
understanding: Only on thursdays at 3pm

open-minded: Mostly
arrogant: Not usually
insecure: Quite definately

interesting: doubtful...i dont know why you people read my blog! lol

hungry: Very full actually
smart: On Saturdays at noon i get my inspirations...

moody: I'm a Cancerian!!! If i wasn't moody I would be a different zodiac sign

hardworking: Usually

organized: LOL...everywhere BUT home
healthy: sometimes...when i have time to be
shy: With new people in a party environment
attractive: When im sleeping
bored easily: no not really...to borrow delencrie's favorite quote....

             "I amuse myself so others don't have to"

responsible: Mostly

obsessed: Uhmm....Obsessive Compulsive

angry: only at stupid fuctards

sad: not generalyl..unless my hormones are out of whack
disappointed: in what?
happy: Mostly
hyper: When i have sugar
trusting: Sometimes more than I should be

talkative: ALWAYS

legal: For what? lol....I', 25 how's that?

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: MY manager
slap: My daughter when she's a brat
get high with: uhmm.....no?

look like: Angelina Jolie

talk to offline: Everyone!

talk to online: Krys and Wenchy are ok...Dem makes me tense sometimes....an i can call delencrie and ophelia if i wanna talk...

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: COMatose..do NOT talk to me

all i need is: Migraine pills

love is: .......LOVE IS
i dream about: A lot of things....sometimes memorable and vivid, other times vague and sometimes i remember nothing

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: Pepsi, diet coke

flowers or candy: roses or alstros....no candy....
tall or short: average

r a n d o m
what do you notice first: Someone's eyes

last person you danced with: Aric at his brother's wedding
worst question to ask: Are you stupid?

who makes you laugh the most: Delencrie...she often makes me laugh until I cry...and Markus...he's usually who the story is abotu thats makign me laugh.......*starts to sing* "Walking 'round in Women's Underwear"
who makes you smile: Everyone

who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: Aric, silly
who do you have a crush on: Aric
who has a crush on you: I'm clueless...i woudl hope Aric does though...lol

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: no, he's computer retarded

save conversations: sometimes if they are outrageous...lol

wish you were a member of the opposite sex: No, not really
wish you were younger: No....

cry because someone said something to you: Yes...less since the hormones got better

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: 2
of hearts i have broken: Uhm.....I'll say 1
of guys i've kissed: Ugh...uhmmm....i dont know...I'd say at least 20
of girls i've kissed: 2

of continents i have lived in: This is it

of tight friends: 3

of cds i own: a bunch
of scars on body: my chin from fallign off my bike, and other than that a few various ones form falls and scabs.....

ok...so EVERYTHING...and i mean EVERYTHING has gone wrong today....well except for one thing. The Haircut went ok. I may post an updated image if delencrie is gracious with her webcam/digital while we are there.  I'm dragging Ophelia over for Ice cream....lol...I HAVE to see this or i wont believe it.

So anyways...Hell at work....first i cut myself....TWICE.....once on EACH hand....im such a tard. THEN...i had to wear sponge bob band-aides. UGH....then I had to get my truck..and put it away... fax 6 orders, and write and enter my order for Thursday in the computer. BUT...before i could do ANY of that.....Denise, one of the manager trainees came by and said..I had to go to the cheese case RIGHT AWAY cuz tehre was like 10% of my product that was outdated

I was like..WHAT DO YOU MEAN 10%!!!! SO....I went over there and started yanking things.  And now we have to CUT a bunch of large bricks. and the list of bullshit goes on and on. by the time i was done with this....and hour and a half of my time was gone. my truck was still sitting there....i was no closer to a written order, and i had to fax the 6 orders still.  So...I get through all the crap. without seeing my department pretty much....and then they bitch cuz I'm never there...like i WANT to run around the whole store like a moron...UGH....and it turns out...I'm shorted 2 things on my truck.  A shipper....whcih i didn't order, and it was force distributed anyways...so im GLAD it didnt come...but I'm not paying $500 something for it if we didn't receive it! Also we were shorted a case of honey turkey....which...we really did need....so im kind of irritated that we didn't get it. 

THEN i finally get all this taken care of....YAY....and i leave....but i forgot the picture i wanted to show the hairdresser...so i had to go home and pick it up. I decide to go to my class at the gym afterwards...so i change while im at home. I go get my hair cut...but i get out of there late and am about 5 mintues late for the class...no big...then the stereo system in the room goes screwy...so he fails to keep the class going. Eventually I gave up and left.....went home and here I am. TRYING to get my little one to GO TO SLEEP so i can go pick up Ophelia from work before she KILLS ME.  Prolly failing there....

SO through all of this...I have had a migraine. YAY....GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I need sleep.....Off to get Ophelia...I'm sick of waiting for something that isn't gonna happen.... I'm sending her grandfather up to her.....

Mood: Hurting    , Irritated    , and Tired 

...... well...today wasn't bad....

I worked on Ophelia's neice's sleeper some more...but i ran out of yarn.............again.

I'm working on some of my many other Christmas gift/projects, now though....so....its ok..I have PLENTY of other things to work on until she gets the yarn to me in some way......

Since my ENTIRE gift list involves crochet this year i think...UGH....lol...I have to make victorian Christmas Balls also....I shoudl really test one of those out.....hmmmm...

anyways.....off to beddy bye...I'm very tired since i was ont he phone with delencrie until 2:40am and was at work at 9:30am.....

Aric is getting crabby time to go snuggle....lol...nite!

Mood: Content     ,  SLEEPY    

OK...so it was mega weird..... 

Today I went shopping with my mom. They STILL don't have a working car. So I've been transporting her a lot on and off.  So...we go to the mall. She pays bills, and I just to whatever...So....we go to "Things Remembered" and I'm asking about engraving for my bridal party gifts.  How much it would be...and stuff...and i turn back to the stroller and there is a BIG GREY SPIDER sitting on my coat! ARHHHH!!!!

for those that DON'T know me...I am TERRIFIED of spiders..... I don't like creepy crawly things that walk into your mouth while you're sleeping. And WHY do they need all those legs? I mean really!! *Shudders* at any rate...I flicked the thing off and squashed it....yeah i know bad luck bad luck bad kharma....it was a long legged icky SPIDER!!! EWWWWWWWWWWW...

OK...so we leave the store....I meet up with my mom. we see Santa....and we go pay my mom's other bill...then walking back, I see the perfect thing..that I MUST have...*rolls eyes* it was only $3.00...then i got inside and saw another one for Delencrie...so i bought it...she better like it...lol...anyways....i pay for it and i turn back...to the stroller and sitting on my coat in the SAME spot is one of those not a lady bug beetle thingies....the same damned spot....

freakish i say....

Also, during the course of this day.... my mom has been talking about .....using a ouiji board.....seeing spirits...desiree's imaginary friends....whom i dont believe are imaginary....and delencrie's hubby Markus...who "knows" things...she wanted to know HOW he knew thigns...which involved this whole long conversation...with me giving up because tehre was too much i DIDN'T know to answer her....*shrugs*

At any rate....off to delencrie's house now.....gonna quiz her....yay....i hope she studied....lol....

Mood: Curious   , and Mellow  

Take the quiz: "What Kinda Kiss R U?"

Romantic Kiss
Lying in bed after making love and just doing whatever.

OK quick blog....

I FINISHED the FISH HAT and SCARF set.  Now all I need is the mitties. But those can wait until I get to them. I'm gonna do a drive-by of Delencrie's hosue today..>IF she'll let me, and see if she can take pictures of my scarf and hat before i take them out to Batavia for the Mailing to Scotland!

ok...Off to dreamland before i Fall asleep otn he computer...NITE all!

So Dumb bitch might get herself fired. I mean really?! How can you be THAT stupid that you don't think that rewriting your own schedule after they tighten  the restrictions on working and shit.....and working OVERTIME on a SUNDAY...isn't gonna get your ass written up? OH and wait....today she took off 3 1/2 hours EARLY...WITHOUT permission. 

If she doesn't get written up; I'm pitching a fit the size of Texas!  A few mroe Fuck ups and she's prolly out the window. 

I am SOOO Incredibly happy that I have tomorrow off. I needed a day off. I was loosing my perspective lately. It has been SOOO busy at work, and With Jeff climbing up my ass over somethign I didnt have any control over, like the volume of customers and Rich deciding to dump a pallet of meat in my department without being asked...somehow I'm supposed to know how to handle all this....WHILE waiting on customers, writing an order, filling wafer, doing price changes, flipping salads, not killing my employees, and somehow Im supposedly getting breaks in here too.  Did I mention I only got my lunch on Sunday...AND Yesterday.  If Donna hadn't been working, I would have only gotten my lunch today also.  I was alone for 2 hours at the end of the day.  That sucked.  I have to go in tomorrow..on my DAY OFF to write an order and submit it. 

What crap. 

Hopefully I'll get it all together eventually...OY!

SO,

I wake up this morning to a phone call from my sister informing us all that my neice has headlice.

So we check my daughter.....she has nits. no live bugs...YET.

However, my neice was HERE on Monday and was SLEEPING here....so she has infected EVRYONE in the house.  We all have to wash our hair,  comb out the nits, and spray EVERYTHING our heads have been in contact with....the couch, the chairs, clothes, the bedding has to be washed. the matresses have to bve sprayed. ALL her stuffed animals have to be  put into bags and isolated for 5 days....

Sound like fun yet?

Mood: Irritated     , And Infested with BUG EGGS EWWWW!!!  

I forgot to update on the Lice....

Turned out that I had more bugs than anyone.....yay me.  *shudders* my parents were virtually bugless....and my sister also...just me, my daughter, and my neice. 

I called into work today. I spent the ENTIRE day yesterday, washing bedding, clothes, and things, and

packing up animals to put in a bag so they can't come in contact with us for a few days until any eggs or bugs on them are dead.Of course, I have read on several websites TODAY that this action was most likely unnecessary. At least the carpet shampooing that my mother insisted on and the vaccuuming, as well as treating the upholstry in the chairs....

My calves hurt like a sonofabitch from hiking up and down 2 sets of stairs all day yesterday.  And im miserable...because my head itches. more than it did YESTERDAY in fact...which leads me to believe that the insecticide  in the conditioner irritated my skin adn is now causing it to break out....which woudl be normal for me.....time to go shower.....Grrrr.....

Oh and also...and update on WHERE the lice came from. Apparently....one fo the kids that goes to our church.....was REMOVED from school due to her infestation with lice.  Her class had a spurt of it.  So, she wasn't allowed to go to school...so her MOTHER sent her to the home of ANOTHER family from our church to be babysat, and DID NOT tell them that she had lice.  Those kids got it. Also, the first child was BROUGHT TO CHURCH by her Mother. So, now all the children at church have lice.  WHY would anyone be THAT STUPID? if your kid can't go to school, they shouldn't be around other kids who they might infest.....and for god's sake..stay home from church on sundays!  It's not like if you miss a Sunday or 2 that you 'll be eternally damned! In fact i'd say after WILLFULLY spreading the lice to the church she's mroe likely to be eternally damned...lol....UGH.....

Off to continue cleaning....my mother is a cleaning fanatic.....:(

Mood: Irritated     and Crabby 

ok....So, last night, I was supposed to go to delencrie's house, but my kid wouldn't go to sleep.....

See, she was tryign to brush her teeth....but she was taking FOREVER doing it, and I thought she was just stalling ging to bed.....My dad come upstairs...and he took over since I was so disgusted and irritated with the whole thing...(she'd been brushing for about 6 minutes then). Well, he made matters worse by yelling at her. I mean the kid is traumatized.  She's had bugs in her hair...we've spent hours combing and washing it the past 2 days, AND....my mom has her believing that if EVER anything is in her teeth when she goes to sleep, she'll wake up and have a cavity.  Now, I have a few cavities, and they are because I have soft teeth in 2 spots...so she apparently used my teeth as an example....OY....

So...my poor child is completely traumatized.  All she's trying to do is brush the potato chis out of her teeth cuz she'll get a TERRIBLE BLACK THING in her mouth if she doesn't.  And here's my dad yelling at her and scaring her.  So we brush her teeth.  Read a story, and I put her into bed.  She cries and cries and cries and cries.  She wanted her comforter. My mom won't let us have them, because she doesn't want to rewash them.  so all we get are the thermal blankets and she turns the heat up. Its a joy.

So last ngiht was a comedy of errors and stupidity.  My dad has been useless in helping with the kids lately. All he does is bite their heads off and make them cry.  He was SUPPOSED to give her a bath last night so my mom could check my hair again...and he had her bawling through that....Great help.

I can't wait until I move out. I think  my kid will be so much calmer....

OK...this morning I was up, thinking...blah blah...gotta work at 9:30am. when I remember......

 I WAS SUPPOSED TO PUT IN AN ORDER LAST NIGHT AT WORK! AHHHH! (I didn't go to work last night because of the whole battling the lice thing...)SO, I was planning on stopping there on my way home from Delencrie's house.  Then I didn't go because of the screaming monkey....and i forgot completely until I woke up and looked at the clock. THis order has to be in by 9:30am...or I don't get a truck....and I didn't put in the order we get today....SO, for all I know we're out of EVERYTHING...

SO i'm off to work without getting ready...again. Just throwing teh clothes on and going.

Have a great day all! ARGH!!!!!

Mood:  Crabby      , and  in a Hurry      , and off to WORK  

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genuinly nice person. Share your kindness with
others...

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I think that quiz was appropriate...lol I just watched "Charlie Brown Christmas" the other night.

At the moment I'm working on making a new layout. This one isn't really reflecting anythign for me right now. The thing is, I can't decide if I should just make something for Yule.....and just change it after the New year? or should I make something more relevant to ME? I plan on changing my spiritual growth blog also. THAT is going to be something relevant to my spiritual growth. I already know what Im putting in there............I wish I could decide....HELP! suggestions?

Mood: Confused 

Today was Santa's lap day..and Picture day.....so..here's santa picture...

LOL...well I guess You could say I'm revisiting my past.  I downloaded a SNES emulator yesterday, and I have spent the past couple of days downloading the "ROMS" or games for it. Right now, I am playing "Zelda 3 a Link to the Past."  I'm also GREATLY amused by it! lol....I also got Secret of Mana, and other assorted RPG's I also downloaded the Final Fantasy's, btu I'm not sure I'll play them at all as I do not really like turn based RPG. I'm more of a 3rd persion hack-and-slasher myself....lol. This carries on from my early RPG days of Zelda...into my modern preferences of Diablo....and Champions of Norrath.

OK, but getting back to the candyland lane......

Did anyone ever own a Tamogochi? I think I had like 4 of them. Of course, they all died....I always forgot to feed tehm at a certain time of teh day. Plus it was rather hard to take care of them in school. Especially since if the teachers saw them they would confiscate them. And you paid what? $15. for this stupid little egg shaped piece of plastic with a bouncing egg shaped animal in it....lol...

One that demanded you play with it almost constantly and feed it as often as you played with it.  LOL....it was amusing though. I'm now into Neopets. The non annoying outside of home type of Virtual pet.

But I really wish I still had one of those Tamogochi's......just for the memories.....

Meddle meddle meddle. Have you ever played that game Telephone? Where everyone sits in a BIG circle ....one person makes up something and whispers it to the person next to them....and so on until it gets back tot he first person...and by then its a COMPLETELY different comment? Like i'll whisper: "I like fruitcake" and by the time it comes back to me it is "Mya makes you bake"....

So this is what is going on with people I know now....One person says something and spreads rumors and the next thing you know BAM its a whole huge massive he said she said I said they said my dog said that you said that I'm this......

It's incredibly stupid. 

Number one: if it's not YOUR business.....STAY OUT OF IT!

Number two: If you don't have anything better to do: FIND SOMETHING! Read a Book! WRITE a book. Don't make up shit about people just because you CAN.

Number three: if it involves someone you only know ONLINE.....remember that you may only know ONE side of he story...OR you may have two incomplete sides of the story....after all if i tell you about a bird i saw fly into a window, and my friend tells you about the same bird he saw fly into a window, our accounts couple be completely different, based upon perspective....

After all, I might say....WOW that bird was stupid he flew right into the window....and he might say....WOW, that bird was suicidal, he deliberately flew into the window.  my comment implies that it was an accident and his comment implies it was a deliberate action. and yet i changed only two words.

Perspective my friends perspective.

Unless you are THERE observing something, you should not feel free to form your own opinions about what is going on. Just my 2 cents....

THIS RANT COURTESY OF MY WORK LIFE AND MY ONLINE LIFE!

OK....got off track there with a bit of rampant stupidity being IM'd to me   ....but I'm good now....I wish people would learn to THINK before they run off the mouth or do something stupid.

OK but....

This weekend, Ophelia and Delencrie and I are baking Christmas Cookies!!!!!!!! (with Markus' excellent assistance as resident babysitter...)

I am in the process of amassing a list of different cookies I am interested in baking.  I believe my list is complete at 9 recipes ......lol....BUT..im sure they will have at least one or two of them on their list also...like cutouts.......

SO...this is my list...lemme know if you can think of any that sound good that I forgot...?

~Chocolate Tipped Butter Cookies

~Grandma's cutout Cookies

~Gingerbread Men

~Gingerbread Cookies

~Peppermint Spirals

~Mint Chocolate Snaps

~Chocolate Crinkles

~Butterhorns

~Checkerboards

some are drop cookies, some are log cookies, and a couple are cutout/rollout cookies....

Also, I am thinking of including my mom's Candy Cane Coffee Cake........

WISH US LUCK!

Mood: HUNGRY! LOL....

BUT I STILL HAVE TO GET  THROUGH THE HOLIDAY WALK AT WORK!!!!!!!

OK off to Hell now....but one note....how many people know "The Night Before Christmas?"

Without looking it up? can you name the next line to the poem....

"The moon on the breast of the newfallen snow....."

REPLY and tell me! :)

OK bonnie here she is I finished your blog layout! here is a screenshot!

go to http://atestingsite.mindsay.com/?entry=1 to get the links for the layout! :) you're welcome!....

OH if you want some text in the upper right hand corner of the main image, let me know. It seems kinda bare so I can add that no problem. and just reupload the image to replace the one there.

Ok wenchy honey. Here you go....

http://atestingsite.mindsay.com/?entry=2

My daughter's Photography!!!!

A long shot of the TV


The piggybank


MY view of Papa


Baby Feet


More baby feet


The candle in the window


My Mommy


My mommy's dresser


Mommy's dresser again


My dollhouse


My favorite TV show


The Potty

OK all here's my temporary new layout. I had a bunch of options and this will have to do for now. I like it, it's my winter layout....so it should last a while...lol...unless i finish the yggrasil one, btu i may put that on my spiritual growth blog even if i DO make it...so.....you can all check for it there....if anyone WANTS me to make THEM a layout...you have to send me an image. preferably one that is 1024pixels wide...like a desktop image.  Then I can edit it and make it the right size for the blog and buttonize it and make bg from it and even an avatar to match....OH and i discovered I can add bubbles...and all sorts of fun stuff the other day...lol...so i have all sorts of fun abilities....

And you can all expect to see more of my 4 yr olds photography soon....IF you're interested...lemme know..since she is prolly filling up the camera as I sit here....hehe

UPDATE: screenshot...so soem day when no one knows what this layout looked like. I have it here.

Well work is work..and I don't really feel  like blogging about that today...the only thing I will say about work..is I hate the stupid bitch who gets everyone all worked up over stupid stuff that is unimportant then acts all smug after wards. I mean really GET A LIFE! this is no longer high school. We live in reality you know....that placewhere people don't get through by kissing ass all the time...Yeah some people get far by ass kissing, but not everyone does.....ok....im done with that now....

I have more pics courtesy of my munchkin....but first I wanna make sure that people are interested in seeing them....lol so drop a hollar if you would like to see my 4 yr old's photography....hehe...

I have to admit though, my photography is just as bad...lol...and I don't have the 4 excuse....but i will post a couple of pics from the Fheill Fionnan Feast I attended last night....bad photography or not....

My Daughter


Wenchy see no evil!


Do NOT TAKE my PICTURE, DAMMIT!


Hmm...I hope those aren't RUM balls....oh phew..it's just pizza


What a nice tree...


Dramatic Irony....


OH! I LOVE IT!..Mama...What is it?


Mine, thank you very much.


Stop taking my picture dammit.....


I'll hide....


Quick! gag her!!!




I have 12 more, but I wont use up all my goodness at once...lol..

OK well i posted on my Spiritual Blog and included an image of the card of the day.  I think I need my scanner to do any of them justice.  The image from the digital is rather poor. However, I also made a new layout for THAT blog..so here she comes.....screenshot time!!!

Makes Christmas REALLY REALLY SUCK!

OK peoples, I am off to work now....BUT.....I wanted to spread some holiday cheer before I left...

SO think happy thoughts, be nice to the people waiting on you. be polite...and when you pass people SMILE! Don't be crabby!! I know how hard it is..Hell i just left the mall with my 4 yr old on a rush trip to purchase a gift for my manager...BUT....I want you to all remember to be kind and courteous on this holiday season..because it's not about how many presents you bought...it's about the people and treating everyone with kindness and love!

"Children laughing People Passing

Meeting Smile after Smile...

And on every street corner you hear...

Silver Bells...

Silver Bells..."

Reply to this post and...

1. I will tell you what song reminds me of you.
2. I will tell you what celebrity/public/fictional person you remind me of, either personality-wise or looks-wise.
3. I will give you one word that I associate with you when I think of you.
4. I will tell you what colors I associate with you.

Then steal this for your blog and make someone else's day as well.  

Barbie is 50% Gay!

CONGRATULATIONS! You've scored right in the middle and

are a happy well adjusted hetero babe!

The Channel 4 Gay-O-Meter has calculated that Barbie is 50 percent gay! Find out just how gay you are with the Channel 4 Gay-O-Meter http://www.channel4.com/gayometer

The Rules:

I) On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first fourteen songs on the list.
II) Write down the first line of the song.
III) Have your friends comment and see if they know the songs. (NO CHEATING!)
IV) When someone guesses correctly, strike out the line and list the correct name of the song next to it. (Title AND artist have to be correctly guessed.)

1.) Everybody knows that yeah I'm kinda shy

And I'm not the kind of girl who could ever approach a guy

But I wanna find a way to get you to notice me

I gotta 4 wheel drive five five brown eyes and maybe you can handle these

2.)  I waited 'til I saw the sun

I don't know why I didn't come

I left you by the house of fun

I don't know why I didn't come

3.)Under a lovers' sky
Gonna be with you
And noone's gonna be around
If you think that you won't fall
Well just wait until
Til the sun goes down

4.) what's with that halo hovering
above that thick skull
spare me
if I do say so - I think you're covering
'course there was nothing
could've prepared me

5.) "That Don't Impress Me Much" by Shania Twain guessed by neonite

  I've known a few guys who were pretty smart

But you've got bein' right down to an art

You think you're a genious; you drive me, up the wall

You're a regular origional know-it-all

6.) "11am" by Incubus - goes to lasirena

 7AM

The garbage truck beeps as it backs up

And i start my day thinking about

What I've thrown away

7.) You and me, we have an opportunity
And we could make it something really cool
But you, you think I'm not that kind of girl
I'm here to tell you baby, I know how to rock your world

8.)  From the top to the bottom
Bottom to top I stop
At the core I’ve forgotten
In the middle of my thoughts
Taken far from my safety
The picture is there
The memory won’t escape me
But why should I care
 

9.)"Morning Song" by Jewel goes to lasirena

 Let the Phone ring

 Let's go back to sleep

Let the world spin outside our door

You're the only one that I wanna see.

10.)  Met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand
went well for a week or two
then it all came unglued

11.) "You Learn" by Alanis Morissette guessed by avoidindarkness

  I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone...

     I recommend walkin' around naked in your living room.

12.) I am a man as a man I've been told
Bacon is brought to the house in this mold
Born of your bellies I yearn for the cord
Years I have groveled repentance ignored

13.) Have you gorged yoruself at last in your lust for blood?

Am I now to be prey to your lust for flesh?

14.) "Standing in the Way" sung by Anthony Stewart Head in Buffy the Musical, guessed by OphelianMinuit

YOU'RE NOT READY FOR THE WORLD OUTSIDE
YOU KEEP PRETENDING, BUT YOU JUST
CAN'T HIDE
I KNOW I SAID THAT I'D BE STANDING BY
YOUR SIDE
BUT I...

Good Luck Guys!!! :)

I'm bored and have nothign to blog about...so...: MAKE SURE YOU MAKE YOUR GUESS ON THE LYRICS! and now onto a new joyous thing

Just a small reminder...PLAY MY GAME! lol I wanna finish it up..I think only 3 of them have been guessed...and a potential 4th, but we missed the song by one track...So keep guessing...here's a link to the game!

PLAY ME!!!

Also, I blogged on my spiritual Blog today....and I would appreciate it if anyone who wants to view would request, and join my list of friends there. Any and all encouragement would be greatly appreciated, and Anyone also practicing any helpful advice appreciated....Always looking for ideas and thoughts!

MY SPIRITUAL BLOG

OK...so i get to work and Carole the cheese lady is leaving...sick....

ok..fine..they replaced her..I'll do cheese....no one in cheese the past 2 days and me off as well means cheese is a disaster...fine ill clean it up a bit........

well then jeff keeps taking me aside to talk to me about "problems" liek Sunday..HELLO get some people who dont have their heads up their asses in my department and I'll show you a VAST improvement in service and ability.

Grrr...by the time im done..I've had a 10 minute 15....and have been in cheese since about 15 minutes after I arrived at 1pm....it's now 7:30 Im taking my lunch.....I leave in 2 hours..I have to clean cheese still and the deli is not done at ALL.  UGH....and lori has a break dn technically i have another break....

I had JUSt walked away when theres a phone call for deli..lori is busy so i took the call...

It's Carole...she can't return to work until Tuesday....which means I have to cover her shifts for...Friday, Saturday, Sunday AND Monday.....cuz she is ACTUALLY on the schedule for them ALL!! :(

So tomorrow...New Years Eve Day...my DAY OFF...I am going into work....to work in cheese...and put an order in....im to go in early..and be out of there as soon as possible....because it is all overtime....and as for saturday...who the hell knows...!!!

And BUD called me CHUBBY!!!

blah blah blog blog...it's new years eve.....and im busier than all hell...UGH....no time to blog..blog tomorrow.....after my 6 am shift :( ....

and then the puking....poor little mite

Hmmmm......lets see....two of my three best friends hate my guts....sicne the third may be eventually dating one o the other two im sure he'll hate me too.  I have no time to do ANYTHING...like SLEEP. My fiance suckers me ALL the TIME....but it's ok cuz..well he's the only friend I have left apparently....I am absolutely miserable.....I have a gollon of stress heaped on me daily. I hate my job, I hate my life..I hate my parents...and everyone hates me...tries to get me fired daily...and now my friends hate me too..because I "DITCHED" them...when really...I COULDN'T HANDLE IT! its the fucking holiday...I can't handle all the stress this year...WAY WAY WAY too much shit at work...I was totally NOT prepared for it. And everyone acts like I should have been prepared..but how can you be prepared for something you've never experienced?  I mean I think when o worked in deli before..I opened ONCE....and we hd a MUCH better crew then..so people HELPED each other, so it wasn't a MAJOR bitch to open or anything...also...I've NEVER been a MANAGER at a HOLIDAY....so for God's sake...someone who HAS...like my fucking supervisor..shoudl be HELPING me out by giving me advice on what to order and when and things like that... And I got the flu missed a truck got reamed out about 6x this week by my manager...but you know..I have no stress...and I just look for the easy way out.....

Yes folks..I LIED...you know those little white lies a LOT of people with kids do..when it really comes down to it..and you DON'T want to do something/go somewhere....maybe you don't even know WHY...maybe it's a feeling..maybe it's something else entirely....maybe you HAVE a reason...that apparently sounds stupid to everyone else..cuz after all why would you sound crazy if you decided that a NON-Smoking party would be better for a 4 yr old...whether the smoking is in a different room or not......?  But hell....one of those little lies..like..My kid is sick..I'm really sorry....how many people have done that? Oh and yeah..I get to go back to work at 6am.....Yes, I wanted this position.....NO> I did not want this posisition WITHOUT propor training.  THAT is why I am having problems..NO ONE has bothered to HELP me with my position.....so stress...what stress?

Throw in...running around like a psycho for over a week to make cookies...work crap....a 4 yr old with lice..my mother SCREAMING at me because I'm not helping her wash EVERYTHING in teh HOUSE EVERY DAY.....because EVERY site i found said it's NOT NECESSARY.....and bills I can't afford...and A fiance I may as well leave because Hell I never see him...except when I'm sleeping...and you have my life...a real crock of shit built right into  the Holidays....

So HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR everybody...pardon me while I blow my fucking brains out..because apparently...we all want to give me shit...but not ask where MY shit came from...so now you know...I'm overworked...stressed to the ears...and I live with my mother at 25 as a single mother..OH! and did I mention my MOTHER seems to think that I was pregnant recently? so YAY...how fun

So lemme see..my day began....once again at 6am at work.....blah blah blah.....bonnie came in at 7:30......

which meant there was no coverage for the midshift....which carole was supposed to work, but she isn't allowed to come back to work until wednesday.....she is sick...still...i think i blogged abotu this....maybe not...anyways.....no carole..ok down one shift...bonnie and I are getting stuff done..with a little help from barb the COC manager......a phone call.....around 11am.....it's ryan calling to say..gee sorry I won't be in blah blah my grandfather's brother died....and I have to go to VA for the funeral right away....uhmm...ok then....so down 2 shifts...with no replacements....im there until 2:30 and bonnie leaves at 4...and lori...the closer doesn't come in until 5:30....not good gaps are bad....so.....we call the front end...hey rob is working...we need to know if you can replace him so we can borrow him for the evening shift int he deli cuz we're REALLY short handed....that was a no go...you can BORROW him when we're slow they say...well yippee skiddoo....like thats gonna help....my truck is sitting in the cooler, my order hasnt been put in, and then the unthinkable happens.....bonnie slices the tip of her finger off....*sigh*....she went to the emergency room....can't use the slicer...rachel AND barb are now helping..with no end to the customers in sight..it is now 1pm...I haven't had a break yet.  Barb tells me to take a break...my lunch AND my break...so 45....ok...45....so i go...run into rob who tells me in no uncertain terms that he REFUSES to work in the deli....well gee thanks rob...i'll remember this the next time you ask me for a favor..or advice....

lori calls..she can come in at 2....hooray...jeff informs us he can't clean the slicer he doesn't know how..the slicer..when blood is involved..is onyl to be cleaned by an operations manager.... ie: a store manager....rachel ended up cleaning it....how the hell can he be our perishables manager and not know how to clean a slicer?  SO..I go back....customers...its been insanely busy throughout...yay....

Off to put in my order...i finish it and finalize....it's now 4:13pm...too late...i missed my window...no truck...dammit....so i call systems support..this happened once before and they told me all i had to do was call and within a half hour they can force transmit it....ok...so i call and the bitch ont he phone informs me i have to call Erin Donahue in order to take care of the order...i got voice mail...so no truck for us...dumb shit...

GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR......

Back int he deli..Rob arrives...under durress.....he was sent by management...to the deli..he saiys...I Do NOT WANT TO BE HERE...and because they FORCED me to come here NOW...I REFUSE to come in tomorrow...which leaves us with a gap from 4-6 and no one to cover it...and us with issues....grr again...barb has finished cheese she finishes up wafer i finish the shrink and leave...5:43pm....tomorrow is another day of hell to look forward to...only it begins at 3am for me as it is inventory tonight....I am goign to TRY to sleep before I have to be back at work...ARGH! I hate TOPS!

Ok well....I'm home now...sort of...I mean physically I'm here, but mentally I think I'm still back at the store inventorying the deli adn puttingt he truck away....and cutting the cheese in cheese shop...i get to go back tomorrow for another big job day....like yesterday wasnt like i had a lot of big jobs or anything..I had to do price changes in the morning and open the deli...then I got bombed with the whole call-ins and sliced finger thing... (see yesterday's post), but budmotorsport helped bail me out yesterday..and for that he gets kudos.....and addicted2lov630  's finger is MUCH better...errr...something...lol she's comign back anyways and not running screaming in the opposite direction...for which SHE also gets kudos....getting bitten by  the slicer can make you or break you in that department I tell you...

Let's see..Today I did inventory..AND opened the deli and tried to do the truck but t was buried under a meat pallet..which yeah great idea...put heavy meat shit on top of olives and cheese...it's my idea of a bright idea....ugh....

Tomorrow I go in and stay late to pull the bottom of the cheese case and WASH it....cuz you know it makes sense to do it tomorrow so we can put it ALL back together Wednesday...then rip it apart along with the other cheese case on saturday when they combine the two to put the kosher deli in....which brings me to joy number 4....they are taking our sinks....after today...we have no sinks...we have to share with carry-out-cafe..who like...NEVER does their Dishes until Aric (my fiance) comes in cuz he's the only one who DOES dishes....Grrrrrr.....anyways...I need a shower....desperately..so I'm gonna go take one..try to put the deli OUT of my mind..and go make a layout for artistandgirl when i get back.

OK..so made the layout and THEN im going to take a shower..I just got going and I was all into it and stuff...so head on over to atestingsite for the links  and here comes.....the screenshot

What exactly are those? I'm not so sure anymore....

    So yesterday...I actually didn't get called in, but i had to call to talk to Jeff, my manager to look into something about the metro rack and putting plexi glass on it...and uhmm....stuff.....at any rate..a bunch of crap. And bud, I have a disk for auntmeena if you get ahold of me i can pass it on to you sometime....i think the phone number for the internet access is wrong and thats why it wouldnt log on.... I have the number for you also...so im me when you are around...

   Uhmm...yeah so i got called at 5 am to go into work this morning....Lorenz went home early yesterday..and when the weather is bad she is known to call in anyways....but she said shes really sick...plus her mother fell down the stairs yesterday..so it could just be her nerves...who knows?

    At any rate I went to work for 4 1/2 hours today...then skipped out ASAP....I have a mponkey now and we are watching Alice in Wonderland.and im trying to stay awake.....Ive been having horrible insomnia the past several nights...since i worked that overnight followed by the late night shift....

     I think my body is just trying to figure out what time it is...lol.....i work tomorrow at 8..so hopefully it will figure it out by then.... then of course, i wake up with a migraine.....and my jaw aching like an SOB....I think at this point it's my wisdom teeth......but UGH it's the sheer effort of trying to find time to get in to have them removed and take time off of work..and all that crap..I'm just not ready.........

Maybe while Maureen is there.....she picks up tha slack..so it'll make all the difference in the world...lol...

     In the mean time...in an attempt to stay awake, I'm going to play this horribly addictive online RPG called Conquer Online.......

http://www.conqueronline.com/index.html

SO if anyone wants to find me...lol you can join me there....my name is AlanaInferno......or my account name is ladydhampyre.....so see you there...back to the game

Bluefrog pisses me off...we're not goign into that right now....i cant find the tv remote....and I am probably going to be up until midnight..or later....as i am headed otu to del's house as soon as i have the monster asleep....hope they dont mind the deli smell.....:-p.....

Off to put her to beddybye....lata!

Darviset is my friend. I dont know if i blogged about it yesterday or not, but my TOOTH HURT!  It was BAD BAD BAD.   At any rate, I took over 3000mg of Ibpreufin yesterday.  I took about 1000 this morning,  and I decided that enough was enough   (especially when the pain did NOT go away.)   SO i called my DR.. .yes my DR. not my DENTIST...lol...I hate the dentist.....but they couldnt fit me in anyways......it's a repeat of a year ago when i tried to get teh chip fixed....anyways......

I called teh DR.   and he perscribed me a pain killer to get me by until I have the root canal..or whatever they will do.    He also Recommended that i call the UB Dental Clinic. Which I plan to do tomorrow....HOPEFULLY they will be able to help me  (before i change my mind) ..... And put me out while they do..cuz i might cry and hyperventilate otherwise.  ...OY....plus if i like them I may go back to have my wisdom teeth pulled  ....once my vacation time is recycled...I''ll need a couple of days of it for the puffiness of my teeth...errr..face....

anyways....Darviset is my new friend...  for now anyways....I got to go to my daughter's  Kindergarten registration while high on Darviset. .it was interesting.....lol....anyways....Off to go feed my addiction  while the little one watches the end of "The Princess and the Pauper" for the 8000th time... .and she is playing with her Princess and the Pauper Barbie dolls acting it all out also ...lol..it's cute.... 

Off to hack and slash my way to bed....YAY no work tomorrow...!!!!!!!!

OK ophelia...here's your new layout...YAY....lemme know if it's ok..I made the background for the plugins section out of her hair.....i thought that was kind of nifty..hehe....

OH a link to the layout would be good, eh? atestingsite

I also plan to make an alternate blog layout for you Ophelia....with the Waterhouse Images..or possibly the Millais Image......prolly the millais image....it would be better with the Ophelia song i have...hmmm....

I'll post that one in a few days...off to play my addiction some more!

http://www.conqueronline.com  come join me there!!! lemme know who you are if you do. I'm AlanaInferno.... you can whisper to me.. :)

Im blogging...im blogging...I'm goign to see the Phantom of the Opera again...YAY!

I'm taking some friends...wish you coudl come del....i wish i could have arranged it for a more convenient time for you cuz it would have been fun....i can always go again with you when you have time and im off...lol....let me know...hehe...

off to shower and dress for the fun fun yay time...

work sucked...partly because a certain manager left early; thus leaving rachel alone for 2 hours.....and the bad scheduling in the deli as well...so we weren't able to help rachel until after noon....i was running back and forth between deli and carry out cafe and breading chickens and also filling the wafer section in deli...then making pizza then logging shrink in deli....

it was pretty crazy....

one i left i had to go get aric and rescue his dog, jake. jake was at the vet for xrays.  he apparently has a torn ACL in his right hind leg.....for those that are clueless its a ligament in his knee....anyways his xrays and pain meds and a shot was $364.....

they want $1,000.00 to operate on it and repair it. oy....time to put the monster to bed now.....

and take some painkillers my mouth is starting to throb.....*sniffs* rot canal on thursday...*hides*

UGH....5 am shifts blow...I desperately miss overnights...I liked LEAVING at 7 am instead of arriving at 5 am. I don't understand it. Maybe I was born to be a vampyre? lol....My body doesnt seem to hate staying up all night, but get me up early and Im dragging...even if i go to bed at 8pm...as i did last night. I went to bed with my daughter last night...which i suppose was closer to 8:30/9ish.....and I slept until the hubbyish came over.....at like 11. Let him in...then went back to sleep until he left....like 2am I think....he checked to make sure i set my alarm...I said i had...when i put the little one to bed.........

4:25 i woke up.....the alarm hadn't gone off yet.....I had to be at work at 5...enough time...I check my alarm..it is set for 10am...lol...I think I fell asleep setting it.....So my biological clock wooke me anyways..but i mean really that's like...9 hours of sleep.....and i was dragging my ass in to work..of course..I am on some major painkillers also....so that could be a contributing factor..as well as the sinus infection..YAY! ok...lol off to sleep...6 am shift tomorrow...Dammit Lorenz...no more days off for you...I don't like working 4 opens in a row!

Root canal...bleh.....my mouth hurts now more than it didi before...and I have to go back next week...why am i not so excited?

OK I am absolutely toast right now, so the short version of my day followed by playing some game to amuse me, then passing out cold....

Woke up....played with munchkin...fell askeep in my pink robe on her bed..awoke hving been covered in pink stuffed animals, a pink blanket, and had pink bunny ears put on my head....Apparently, I was the "sick baby bunny" and desiree was the "lovey mommy bunny" LOL...ate very little lunch....unburied my car...went to work... took pain meds..... couldnt remember if it took pain meds...i was in pain... took more pain meds.....

felt ill from OD ing on pain meds.... ate food... felt better....stood around cuz there was nothing to do.....no customers and stuff...bored....showed Celia Price changes... unburied my car again.....drove home... sitting here blogging..

going to bed...nite!

OK...i'm going to update you all for the FIRST time in FOREVER...HOLY CRAP! i missed like 2 weeks here...

I got lost in the ever shifting world of Conquer Online and WORK hell...lol...

So....I will attempt to force myself to update again once a day...(prolly when the servers on the game go down for daily maintenence) LOL.... So for all of you who missed me...FEAR NOT ! I will be updating you all again with messages from the other side...*cue cheesy outer limits music here* lol...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!

Just wishing everyone a happy hearts day on this the happy hearts day of all happy heart's days...

I'm sicker than a dog

the Dr. can't see me until tomorrow though

I've been sick for a couple of days...

Lost my voice somewhat on Saturday...

By Sunday....I was croaking...got called into work early...so i went..with the intention of leaving early as well if possible..

it wasn't byt the itm i left...my nose was redder than rudolph...running constantly.., my eyes were oozing stuff...my ears were stuffy...i was coughing..yet i couldnt cough because my throat was closed up..

...

today....

my mom called me into work..since i couldnt talk..

i can talk a little bit more now...but its still pretty bad...

of course..by tomorrow...when i get to the dr. ill be fine..right?

lol.... Ok.....the servers are prolly back up now...so back to my silly game...lol

OH!....got married in my game a couple of days ago...lol...so cheesy... :)

OH YAY!....this is almost as exciting as having Walking Pneumonia last year.  back on the drugs again.  Bactrim....sorry guys i got bactrim and biaxin mixed up earlier.....and Hydrocodan.....which i have already accidentally spilled onto the countertop.

 GO ME! SO im goign to go take amigraine pill and play my dumb game until i nod off and die...lol...tata...

I have been silent. I have been sure.
I doubted once, and was reassured by one who knew nothing.
The darkness is at hand clawing with relentless fingers.
But there is a light.
The signs have pointed.
Sol will guide her pride across the sky
And we will have warmth once again
In a time of great turmoil
We must ALL look inside ourselves
and ask if this is truly who we wish to be.
May the Norns guide your movements carefully
For at the final battle...only the most noble of the fallen
will be taken by Freyja or the Valrkyrjur.
IF you have been pure in your heart
and been true to yourself and others
and Noble in battle fighting head on with no tricks
You will be the chosen.
To sup with Odin in Valhalla...
Or to grace the nine halls of Freyja.
For if you are not true to yourself...
you will become one of the Niflheim...
cursed as the dead and sentenced to the underworld...
May Hel look on you kindly...

Current Mood: Dissappointed 

All right...nothing long to blog at the moment...lots going on, but no time to blog ...

Gonna go to work now....gotta work gotta work...ARGH

HATE work! bleh.

But i have a new blog layout coming...lol...it's gonna be great...LOL

ugh I'VE GOT THE HICCUPS!!!!!! ok....

other than that....

I've been putting the chair to good use...see?

So...it's been an interesting month out here in Snow Bunny USA....

Some  stupid shit has been escalating...I've been tryign to kill myself with work and illness....

amidst giving support to a friend out in the middle of snowcows, NY....trying to pick up the slack when my manager left...while fending off the well meaning but annoying as all hell advice and help from the replacement manager..who thank the lord above...or below or whereve the god you're praying to comes from.....is leaving in another two weeks...

BUT the drama....Grrr...so...

I think i have a surplus of drama in my life lately....And yet the play keeps playing....

"All the world's a stage
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts..."

So I have been informed...that Wednesday....one of the players will be exiting my stage...and moving on to another.

I am melancholy about this...and yet..I can't seem to drag my ass out to see him before he leaves.

Yesterday, I had too much to do...and today...my back is killing me and i need to rest before working in the middle of the night.......and yet i feel like I'm just making idle excuses....*sigh*

If you're reading this hon, I apologise for not coming out there today...or yesterday....

but i needed some time...to get my shit together....and figure out what's going on.

So here i am...blogging....for the sake of blogging. What to blog about? well I could blog about my friends....and their shit...like poor ophelia and her continuous car problems.....or delencrie and how awesome that she'll make my veil for me....or wolvie and his fun and exciting life in  butt fuck, NY...note..sarcasm there....or wenchy....whom i really haven't talked to personally...so im not sure what EXACTLY is going on with her...There is tons of speculation....and insider information and whatnot..but i havent heard from her personally..so at this time im reserving judgement...as much as i can...since im an emotionally charged cancerian...or wait i coudl blog about my wedding plans...and how i don't want to plan anymore....lol...or the photographer i dont have or the DJ i need to find...

But I'm tired.

I'm tired of being the non judgemental one....the one that holds back..waits for the bigger picture and then calmly and politely points out to those involved what caused the issues in the first place....so im not blogging about any of these things.  I'm staying quiet lest i say something i may later regret....and those on whom i am holding back..you know who you are...

Midnight Train to Georgia

LA proved too much for the man (too much for the man) (he couldn't make it)
So he's leaving the life he's come to know (he said he's going)
He said he's going back to find (going back to find)
What's left of his world the world he left behind
Not so very long ago
Oh yeah

(Chorus)
He's leaving (leaving) 
On that midnight train to Georgia (leaving on the midnight train)
Oh yeah said he's going back to find (he's going back to find)
A simpler place and time (and when he takes that ride)
Yes he is (guess who's gonna be right by his side)
I'll be with him (I know you will)
On that midnight train to Georgia (leaving on the midnight train)
(Woohoo)
I'd rather live in his world (live in his world)
Than live without him in mine 
(World, is his, his and hers alone)

He kept dreaming (dreaming)
That one day he'd be a star (A superstar but he didn't get far)
But he sure found out the hard way
That dreams don't always come true 
Oh no (uh uh uh)
So he sold all his hopes
And he even sold his own car
And bought a one way ticket back
To the life he once knew 
Oh yes he did 
He said he would

(Chorus twice)

(World, is his, his and hers alone)
(All aboard one world his man her girl)
I've got to go, I've got to go (all aboard one world her man his girl)
I've got to go, I've got to go (all aboard one world her man his girl)
All aboard one world her man his girl
All aboard one world his man her girl

Leaving on a jet plane

(Ah-ah, ah-ah) (Ah-ah, ah-ah) All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go I'm standing here, outside your door I hate to wake you up to say "goodbye". But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn The taxi's waiting, he's blowin' his horn Already I'm so lonesome I could {cry} (die)...
*	So kiss me and smile for me Tell me that you'll wait for me Hold me like you'll never let me go... ('Coz) I'm leavin' on a jet plane I don't know when I'll be back again Oh babe, I hate to go...
(Ah-ah, ah-ah) There's so many times I've let you down So many times I've played around (but) I tell you now, they don't mean a thing {Don't mean a thing} Every place I go, I think of you Every song I sing, I sing for you When I come back, I'll wear your wedding ring... {I'll wear your ring} [repeat *] ([instrumental interlude]) Now the time has come to leave you One more time, let me kiss you Then close your eyes{,} (and) I'll be on my way... Dream about the days to come when I won't have to leave alone About the times (that) I won't have to say: {I won't have to say} (Oh,) kiss me and smile for me Tell me that you'll wait for me Hold me like you'll never let me go... ('Coz) I'm leavin' on a jet plane I don't know when I'll be back again (Oh babe, I hate to go...) (I'm) leavin' on a jet plane I don't know when I'll be back again (Oh babe, I hate to go...) {Leavin' on a jet plane} {I don't know when I'll be back again} {Oh babe, I hate... to go...} (I'm leavin' on a jet plane) (Leavin' on a jet plane) (Leavin' on a jet plane) (Leavin' on a jet plane) (Leavin' on a jet plane) (Leavin' on a jet plane) (Leavin' on a jet plane) (Leavin' on a jet plane) (On a jet plane...)

Quiet...tense....dark...

sitting...predatory

he waits

How do you tell someone you care if they won't listen?

How do you break the silence when it will shatter all around you?

How do you keep the darkness from consuming your soul?

How do you tell a friend you love her when she doesn't care?

How do you reach someone who is lost within?

I'm doubting myself now.  I'm not really sure how I came to this.  However...it all hinges on one little sentance...and offhand comment dropped to me in passing....no doubt only half serious....and yet.....it nags at me .

In the corner of my mind, it sits and wait

Until the moment i least expect it to hop out and taunt me

Laughing at me...and making me wonder...what if...

What if i said yes...what if I was gone right now?

would anyone care?

so....just another typical day in hell..I mean the deli.  I'm the manager....all my employees wanna bitch but no one wants to help make it better...Actually...at the moment...they wanna bitch abotu me..

because after I injurred my back abotu a month or so ago, I wasn't supposed to be lifting ANYTHING over 10 lbs....OR doing the truck...which is says specifically in my dr.'s note...

well today they finally realized that it said that and upper management tried to enforce it......a month too late in my opinion.....OY! well i spent the morning listening to Maureen...or momo as she calls herself like some dumbassed baby....bitch because she can't do my truck she has her own...like 10 items...*rolls eyes*

and Donna bitch and whine because she has scoliosis and she shoudlnt be doing it and she's going to go get a dr's note too..so she doesn't have to do the truck..

LIKE I JUST GOT A NOTE SO I COULD GET OUT OF DOING THE TRUCK FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!!! What morons.

I have a note because i have a strained lumbar.....the definition of that is a TORN muscle in my lower back

which each time i do this tears more...SO...

we need to stop pulling it and get it back where it's supposed to be and strengthen the SUPPORTING muscles so it will not be stressed as much...

at least...that's the idea

the fact that I keep doing the things that caused it to reweaken and get strained again in teh first place..is not helping it heal....

so im bitching now...dammit...i can't do it right now...

so if everyone would pitch in and leave me the hell alone.....and stop acting like i injured myself because i didnt want to work...then we'll all get along fine...and I won't have to quit and go to Batavia for a full tiem deli CLERK position..which i'll say at the moment is looking rather nice....moving to Depew in October or not!

I got to try on my wedding dress today!!!!!!!!! And here she is....hehe,....

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You Are Incredibly Logical

(You got 75% of the questions right) Move over Spock - you're the new master of logic You think rationally, clearly, and quickly. A seasoned problem solver, your mind is like a computer!

The person who was to become St. Patrick, the patron saint of Ireland, was born in Wales about AD 385. His given name was Maewyn, and he almost didn't get the job of bishop of Ireland because he lacked the required scholarship.

Far from being a saint, until he was 16, he considered himself a pagan. At that age, he was sold into slavery by a group of Irish marauders that raided his village. During his captivity, he became closer to God.

He escaped from slavery after six years and went to Gaul where he studied in the monastery under St. Germain, bishop of Auxerre for a period of twelve years. During his training he became aware that his calling was to convert the pagans to Christianity.

His wishes were to return to Ireland, to convert the native pagans to Christianity. But his superiors instead appointed St. Palladius. But two years later, Palladius transferred to Scotland. Patrick, having adopted that Christian name earlier, was then appointed as second bishop to Ireland.

Patrick was quite successful at winning converts. And this fact upset the Celtic Druids. Patrick was arrested several times, but escaped each time. He traveled throughout Ireland, establishing monasteries across the country. He also set up schools and churches which would aid him in his conversion of the Irish country to Christianity.

His mission in Ireland lasted for thirty years. After that time, Patrick retired to County Down. He died on March 17 in AD 461. That day has been commemorated as St. Patrick's Day ever since.

Much Irish folklore surrounds St. Patrick's Day. Not much of it is actually substantiated.

Some of this lore includes the belief that Patrick raised people from the dead. He also is said to have given a sermon from a hilltop that drove all the snakes from Ireland. Of course, no snakes were ever native to Ireland, and some people think this is a metaphor for the conversion of the pagans. Though originally a Catholic holy day, St. Patrick's Day has evolved into more of a secular holiday.

One traditional icon of the day is the shamrock. And this stems from a more bona fide Irish tale that tells how Patrick used the three-leafed shamrock to explain the Trinity. He used it in his sermons to represent how the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit could all exist as separate elements of the same entity. His followers adopted the custom of wearing a shamrock on his feast day.

The St. Patrick's Day custom came to America in 1737. That was the first year St. Patrick's Day was publicly celebrated in this country, in Boston.

Today, people celebrate the day with parades, wearing of the green, and drinking beer. One reason St. Patrick's Day might have become so popular is that it takes place just a few days before the first day of spring. One might say it has become the first green of spring.

ok lets see.... 

I got pulled over the other day ...lol speeding..Im a retard....

But the cop was nice...and cute... lol so that made up for it...somewhat....

He politely gave me my speeding ticket and told me to plead not guilty...lol and all that...which honestly...I've never gotten before...I've never gotten a NICE cop...usually ALL i get are assholes...

uhmm...lets see.....what else...

OH...yesterday was my FIRST day off of work..since LAST WEEK Sunday .....UGH...12 days straight...

which almost turned into 13   because Donna, the full time opener...who has been there forever and is in charge when im not there....called in....

Her husband was in an ambulence going to the hospital last i heard....I wish I knew more.... So I'm not upset she called in, but i was rather frustrated because i thought I'd be working on  my first day off in forever ....But I managed to cover the shifts and they all assured me that they woudl be fine....

Of course I'm paranoid and i worried anyways

and stoped in to make sure they were all right...I mean...It's one thing to leave Donna, who has worked there for like 10 years in charge with a good crew and a trainee in  ON TOP of the regular hours.....

when i order a 112 piece truck, and have all the salads come in....

But it was a WHOLE  nother world for me to leave them with the trainee as a shift of her own and i just worried...lol..

Apparently everything went fine ...they called me twice....once when they wanted to make sure of how they were supposed to take care of an order, and the second time when the signs were missing for price chages....(still in my mailbox in the dept manager's office) Usually, either I, or Donna, would get them sometime during the day if we're there....since we weren't....no one got them and Craig called and i told him..no mroe calls so i guess everything went OK...

And so far, I haven't heard from Donna...so I assume she'll be at work tomorrow as scheduled.....Wish i knew what was going on though...would be nice.... 

Lets see......anything else? hmm...OH....yesterday Was Budmotorsport's birthday....but since he's been a shithead, I think i'll just keep his gift....

I think that is fitting punishment....yeppers....

Went to a kids birthday party today....Well, my DAUGHTER went...lol I just am a tag along...hehe....

It was a POOL party at the YMCA...so we got to smell like chlorine ..and now im hacking up my lungs again....blah....I hope i dont get pneumonia again...I really can't afford it....*sigh*

at any rate...

OK guess that's it for now...I'm sure there's something...lol...but im so retarded....and now that i took a nice little 4 hour nap im wide awake...and will be up half the night .....

Prick of a pin, no blood on me
I've been tested, total wasted, in too deep
To the zone, I retreat
What doesn't kill ya makes you strong eventually
Blade to my skin, blurring the edge
Seven doves are waiting for me up ahead
I just breathe in, I just breathe out
I've taken every hairpin curve by now
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack but it doesn't matter
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack

Promised the world, dropped in a pool
Was it fun, did you enjoy acting so cool
Well, here's the thing, still have my head
I stumble hard but I'm not sleepin' in your bed
Saved by the sun, no shame on me
We come out scheming it's the only time we're free
I just breathe out, I just breathe in
I ride the wave until I come again

I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack but it doesn't matter
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack but I'll never shatter
Cuz I still have a secret
In the dark I keep it close
I still have a secret no one knows

I may crack but I'll never shatter
Tested, wasted, over and over
I may crack but it doesn't matter
In the darkness I am the shatter
Shake down, twisted and tied
It's amusing that I'm doing this fine
I just breathe in, I just breathe out
I may crack, but I'll never shatter
Cuz I still have a secret
In the dark I keep it close
I still have a secret no one knows

I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack

                           ~Meredith Brooks

Just a song that is on a disk I have that i put in today. It really struck a chord with me...

I think i listened to it about 20 times. I think it adequately describes my feelings right now torawrds various areas on my life...

OK, here are the images of your kitty as I said. A bit of color enhancement and some cropping.  I thought your kitty looked a little washed out.  Lemme know if this suits him better.

ok...so, it's been a lovely week here in Hell, USA....

I was EXTREMELY ill over the weekend...symptoms including 103 degree fever, chills, sore throat, migraine, dizziness, runny nose, watery eyes, and naseua being my best friends for Thursday, Friday, and part of Saturday.  On Friday, I saw my dr's Physicians Assistant (my dr. doesnt work Fridays, and i was there for somethign else anyways...) and she told me it was probably a viral infection...and she gave me nothing for the sore throat...which she claimed wasnt that bad...(lemme tell you it was BAD on MY end!) and perscribed me a nasal spray, which they had in the office and they gave me (rhinocort)...the  end result being...my nose ran more as the nasal spray broke up the crap in my sinuses, however, that gave it free rein to run into my throat and out my nose..YAY! Also, included, a dr. note to take off of work....which i was given a dirty look for by my manager, and informed that....well i'd best get over to my department and see what I can do abotu covering my shift.....(oh really Asshole?! I don't think so! After all..she's highly contagious....lets send her over to the food service department!) I handed over all the info for people who coudl work to the Carry Out Cafe Lead and she promised to write an order for me and get someone to cover my shift...and told me "You look terrible. Go home and sleep." I pretty much slept all day Friday....about 19 hours...

By Saturday night, I felt a bit better...so i tagged along with my fiance to go to the ROchester Amerks, hockey game...that we had planned on attending....boy was THAT a mistake!  We get to the parking lot and i think i coughed my brains out for the entire walk to the arena....followed by coughing through the first period and a half of the game.  The cold air really did a number on me! BLAH! 

Then I get home....spend Sunday at home, alternately coughing, blowing my nose, and taking medication....JOY!  By Sunday night, the phlegm was upon me, and I hacked and coughed and tried not to throw up all night long, as well as sweat and tossed and turned...

Enter today! I went to work at 6 am....YAY! had NO ONE scheduled until 10 am....(oops my bad...oh wait...no one TO schedule! *sigh*) and therefore was alone until 10.  It wasn't TOO busy, but it was busy enough and I was testy enough by then that I wasn't exactly pleasant.  combine that with  the fact that the cheese lady took the day off, and i am the ONLY person  in the store who knows ANYTHING about cheese (YAY ME!:(  ) meaning I have to write the order for cheese and fill the olive bar and cut any cheese that we need.....then throw in making antipasto, attending a 1 1/2 hour manager meeting, putting in an order, faxing in another order, showing the new Lady in Carry Out how to use the comptuer to order product, write a transfer for another store, and clean up a mess made by my immediate supervisor...and lets not forget breaks, lunches, and the getting the truck and putting it away............

Hi, did i mention I was only supposed to work 8.5 hours?! I was there for 9.5 hours.....and then another 20 issuing instructions to my employees.....forgetting to take care of a couple of things before getting my perscription which the Dr. called in for me when i called back telling them that I was worse....as i spent the majority of today without a voice....and croaking like a frog between blowing my nose and coughing my brains out (wanna come buy deli meat from me now?)....and finally leaving the building...10 hours after I arrived. ... I called to tell Physical therapy I'd be late....and went to have a throat culture done...at the dr. request..only...lo and behold..I forgot my insurance card! well....thats not exactly right..I didnt carry it with me to WORK....thus i didnt have it after work...my mom coudlnt find it when i called home adn the computer were down at the Quest lab, so i had to call my dr.'s office to get my insurance information....go me....finally get to Physical therapy...an hour and 20 minutes late....and they tell me i'll have to wait like 45 minutes...so i said nevermind and rescheduled...and came home....where I am now researching: bronchitis, strep, and the flu....

So after the completion of all this bull, I remember i forgot to tell people at work stuff and call...they're getting slammed...FUN!...then an hour later, they call me back....apparently they short scheduled Carry Out and the girl working doesn't know how to clean the chicken oven....and apparently, I'm supposed to! WOW....musta missed that class!

At any rate! the long and short of my fun filled weekend is.....EVERYONE CROSS YOUR FINGERS THAT I DONT HAVE STREP!  because if i do...I'll have passed it to my mother, my daughter, my father, and my fiance....and an untold number of people at work that I've been exposed to...or that have been exposed to me...AND....

if i DO have strep...cross your fingers that I gave it to the store manager who apparently..doesn't feel that I should EVER get sick...and if i do that I should come to work anyways and spread it around to all the customers and associates....YAY FOOD SERVICE!....

The Moral of this Story of a Store is:  Tops SUCKS go to Martins!

OK....who took it?!  I lost my wallet! Have you seen it?

It is fuzzy and snaps shut and has zebra stipeys...

I am SOOOOOOOO Happy.  My coworker Jeff, did all the work tonight. He didn't want to wait on any customers ( all 6 of them), and he knew that I had a mountain of paperwork to dig myself out of, so he offered to do all the work, if i would wait on the customers.  So nto only did I not do any actual "Deli work", I got ALL my paperwork done, and am ahead for tomorrow, AND I really didn't have to wait on any customers for the whole evening once he got there, because, well, there weren't many.

So, all in all, the evening started out OK...got a little rocky for a while with me being alone and it being the busy time, and ended up being rather relaxing. I feel a GREAT sense of accomplishment now, having caught up on everything.  So, tomorrow, when I go in, all I have to do is write a transfer that I already started, and fill out my purchase log, and update my 380 binder, all of which will take approximately an hour...

I don't even have an order to put in tomorrow, as on Fridays, there are two.

Hooray for catching up.

OK....new blog layout coming soon....lol

NO NOT FOR ME....

addictedtolove630, you are next in the line of blog layouts.  I feel really bad hon, but i FORGOT about it, until i ran into the image the other day. PLUS I aven't been blogging lately. In fact..I spend an awful lot of time on my computer for someone who doesn't do anything on it.....hmmmm...

I think I'm going to start trying to write again....

share my thoughts on that on here....

At any rate.....

Off to work on your blog layout...need to get a nice background for the image...

Dammit I think I missed another day here.  I was reading other's blogs instead.  LOL... For those that wonder, I believe I am having a relapse of whatever I was sick with..which APPEARS to have been pneumonia...based upon several factors, but here are a few symptoms of it, which I experienced....

The illness usually follows or may develop during a cold, flu or an attack of bronchitis.

• Develops very quickly. You will feel extremely ill *BOY DID I!
  
  
• Fever between 101°- 106° and chills (shivering)  * 103 degrees baby
  
  
• Sweating especially at night. You may wake up soaking wet * well after you cake yourself in blankets to stop the chills and shivering, when the fever breaks you wake up sweating more than a body builder on a treadmill!
  
  
• Joint pain and muscle aches  *Uhmm...I think we can safely say..YES to this...since I didn't want to get out of my chair because my body ached so bad...yup...affirmative
  
  
• Cough which may be productive (you cough up phlegm) or non-productive (you do not cough up any phlegm). The phlegm may be green, yellow, rust-coloured or contain actual spots of blood  *I won't go into details....other than to verify that...YES it was productive...bleh
  
  
• Breathlessness, wheezing or rapid breathing which may sometimes be laboured  *Well lets see, there was a layer of thick mucus shit over my throat...I dunno difficulty breathing?
  
  
• Chest pain especially when coughing or taking a deep breath *Chest pain...yeah..I was talking to Julie the other day when I coughed...and then grabbed my left breast in pain.....she told me she likes to think of them as growing pains...LOL...but that for obvious reasons she would understand if I didn't...lol
  
  
• Sore throat  *One of my first symptoms
  
  
• Swollen glands in the neck  *Yes and they were really high up to, like they were trying to slide into my head...blah...they accompanied the migraine and the sore throat as my first noticeable symptoms.
  
  
• Lack of appetite  *Honestly, who eats when you feel naseaus?
  
  
• Upset stomach  *see last comment
  
• Fatigue and tiredness which is worse than when you have a cold or flu *The day I went to work with a Dr. note, I went home by 10am and went to sleep. I didn't wake until 6pm....this after sleeping a while night before....then as soon as i forced some soup in me, I immediately went back to bed and slept until morning....yeah I'd say excessive fatigue....sleeping about 20 hours out of a 24 hour day...hmmm...
  
  SO....that's the scoop of the joy of being ill for me. One of these days I would TRULY like to get WELL before the next bout f whatever hits me...is that REALLY so much to ask?

Who hates mornings? 

I am desperately NOT a morning person.   I work in a half an hour. I have to get dressed and drive there. Which I will accomplish without any real effort, HOWEVER, the hardest part is already accomplished.  I got out of bed.  For some reason, I NEVER want to get out of bed in the early morning.  By early I mean before say 9:30/10:00. LOL. Since I write my own schedule, and that of everyone else in my department, it makes you wonder why I don't just schedule myself later in the day, doesn't it?  Technically, I could, but basically, that is not possible, due to the fact that I would be SO out o the loop abotu what is going on on a daily basis, that it is not funny.

So, BLAH for mornings!

Who else hates mornings?

Did anyone ever hear of the Jim Henson CHristmas Movie called... "The Christmas Toy"?

It was about a little stuffed toy tiger (Rugby) who thought that he should be the Christmas Toy every year.  He didn't understand that every year there was a new Christmas Toy.Little quirks that make this story interesting are thing such as how none of the toys can be found out of the place they were last left, or they "die". Which basically means they become toys in truth. They cant move or talk or anything. They freeze.

The end of the movie comes when Rugby finally understands the meaning of being a member of the family and welcomes the new toy.  And they sing this very swet song i love. The Lyrics are as follows:

Old friends, new friends
Home with the family
We'll be together at Christmas
Snowflakes, sleighbells
Bringing back memories
We'll be together at Christmas
Some things change with passing years
Let this feeling stay
Old friends, new friends
Hoping we'll always be
Here with each other together
On Christmas Day.

And as they sing, all the toys that have become frozen come back to life. It is incredibly touching.  Why am I talking abtou a Christmas Movie in the Spring? Because it is 4 am, I can't sleep, and I just found the movie online for the first time in the 5 years I've looked for it.  And if i don't document it SOMEWHERE, then next year, when I want to BUY  it for my daughter, I'll be able to find it.  We used to have it on a tape. Only the Gods know where that tape is now....but i wonder......

I am supposed to be at chuch right now, but i have lost all motivation to go ANYWHERE. I didn't sleep the night before last, and while it didn't really bother me yesterday, I'm feeling it this morning.  I have that extreme BLAH feeling again. I have to work at 1:30pm-10pm, So I suppose I had best find some motivation to get out of this chair and get a shower and get dressed.  It's going to be one of those days where motivation is a had thing to come by.  Especially, the work part. I think this is my 3rd Sunday in a row. I'm supposed to have every other Sunday off, but Donna does a real good job of screwing me out of that deal.  I'm far to malleable.  I agree to her bullshit and everyone else's all the time.  Maybe I'm not good management material after all, but until someone comes along who has a BRAIN, I guess that leaves ME in charge of the deli, cheese shop, and Carry Out Cafe...and the ditz they got to run it.

     I hate Sundays.  It's always SOOOOOOOOO busy at the store. It's like everyone forgot that they had to buy lunchmeat, so they all pile in right after Church on Sundays, which makes us nonstop insane between the hours of 9am and 2pm....Last week, it didn't stop until almost 4pm.  I don't know what happened. And then when I was leaving around 5pm ( and hour and a half later than I was supposed to) I saw that it was picking up again. It was nuts.  And as much as we need the sales to keep like that....the day was crazy, and i would prefer if they would spread out their attack more so that there aren't 12 people standing in front of the deli all day long. 

   Beltaine : pronounced Bel-Chen-ya, is the third of the four ancient Celtic Fire Festivals. Beltaine is a Greater Sabbat celebrated on April 30th (the eve of) or May 1st. Beltane is also known as May Eve or May Day.  Beltaine is an anglicization of the Irish "Bealtaine" or the Scottish "Bealtuinn". While "tene" clearly means "fire," nobody really knows whether Bel refers to Belenus, a pastoral god of the Gauls, or is from "bel," simply meaning "brilliant." It might even derive from "bil tene" or "lucky fire" because to jump between two Beltane fires was sure to bring good fortune, health to your livestock, and prosperity . In the Highlands, the Beltaine fires and festivals were common until the mid-nineteenth century. Also, in the Shetlands, up until at leats the same time, dancing around the bonfires continued, and it was considered that to jump over the flames brought properity and plenty.

   When the Druids and their successors raised the Beltaine fires on hilltops throughout the British Isles on May Eve, they were performing a real act of magic, for the fires were lit in order to bring the sun’s light down to earth. Beltaine's origin is the landing of the Tuatha De Danaan upon the shores of Ireland. This is a between time, and between light and dark, day and night, has a profound meaning for Celts. These are in a very real way, a Third time. It marks the beginning of the summer and the light half of the Celtic year. 

  Our ancestors were predominantly a pastoral people. Beltaine was the time when the cattle were put out to their summer grazing pastures in the mountains. It was believed that the sacred bonfires would also, bring protection, good fortune and fertility to the people. It was also the time when the Ruadh or warriors would test their fighting skills in the Beltaine Games. With the hard work of planting accomplished, it was a time when the clans came together in celebration with the hope that the crops would grow and flourish in the months ahead. Beltaine is the beginning of summer.

   The actual Beltaine festivities began a few days beforehand ther festival date, by the collection of the nine sacred woods for the kindling of the fires. Each fire was built in two places, with a narrow passage between the two. A circular trench was cut round them symbolizing the sun. The area was a sacred hill, or set of hills, like the Paps of Anu, and these were large enough to hold the entire assembled community. 

   As at the other festivals, games and racing were the norm. With the marches and races, horses were a prominent feature. The usual music and singing, markets and feasting were also to be found. In many places, a May Queen was elected. The maiden was crowned by an elder lady of notoriety, after the new queen and her court had arrived at a predetermined place. It was the May Queen who led the hymns to the rising sun, as all the people congregated on the appropriate hill at Beltaine. She is also believed to have led some of the marches in the older times.

  Beltaine was a time of fertility and unbridled merrymaking, when young and old would spend the night making love in the Greenwood. In the morning, they would return to the village bearing huge budding boughs of hawthorn (the may-tree) and other spring flowers with which to bedeck themselves, their families, and their houses. They would process back home, stopping at each house to leave flowers, and enjoy the best of food and drink that the home had to offer. In every village, the maypole—usually a birch or ash pole—was raised, and dancing and feasting began. Festivities were led by the May Queen and her consort, the King who was sometimes Jack-in-the-Green, or the Green Man, the old god of the wildwood. They were borne in state through the village in a cart covered with flowers and enthroned in a leafy arbor as the divine couple whose unity symbolized the sacred marriage of earth and sun.

   Amonst the ancient customs of this festival which survives to this day, is that young women will wash their face in the dew of Beltaine morning to preserve their beauty. May dew was indeed considered to be holy water. People who were sprinkled with May dew were assured of health.

   This day was one which saw visits to the holy well. A visitor would walk three times around the well, then they would throw in a silver coin, after which, while praying, they would drink from the well using their hands. When those things were done, they would then ties a bit of colored cloth or a piece of clothing, called a cloutie to a branch of a nearby tree. The above had to be done in complete silence. The visitor also had to be well out of sight of the well before sunrise.

    Beltaine, being the calends of summer, is a time between, therefore the veil between words thins, allowing this world and Tir na Nog (OtherWorld) to intermingle.This has always been considered the other time in the year when the veil between the worlds was thin. Because of this it has been long believed that the fae were abroad. As the fae were prone to stealing milk from cows, or even turning it sour, rowan crosses were hung in byres, and domestic animals were sprinkled with water from holy wells. It was particularly important that no fire (kindling) should be given away at this time.

   Traditionally, every fire in the household was extinguished on the eve of Beltaine.  Then, long before the oncoming dawn, the folk left their homes. They took their livestock with them and made their way up to the site sanctified by centuries of such veneration. The ritual was carried out by the Fili or Draoi, (The word Draoi is used here in its 'paleo' sense of a teacher of the skills and not in its later 'neo' sense), who await the arrival of the community.

   Once assembled the eyes of everyone turned towards the horizon awaiting the rise of the new sun. The king or queen recited verses of poetry just before the first rays of the sun peek over the horizon. As the small glimmer of light grew into blazing radiance, the voices of the people raised in praise with song. This as the chosen people begin creating the Need Fire, the virgin flame from which the fires are kindled.  When the wood burst into flames, it proclaimed the triumph of the light over the dark half of the year. 

   The sacred fire now lit in greeting to the sun, the whole community then formed a procession. They traveled three times around the fires. They then drove all the animals through the passages between the fires three times to be blessed and purified. This was to ensure fertility in the coming months before being driven up onto the hillsides for summer.   Then the whole hillside came alive as people thrust brands into the newly roaring flames and whirled them about their heads in imitation of the circling of the sun. If any man there was planning a long journey or dangerous undertaking, he leaped backwards and forwards three times through the fire for luck. As the fire sunk low, the girls jumped across it to procure good husbands; pregnant women stepped through it to ensure an easy birth, and children were also carried across the smoldering ashes. After the blessings, torches were lit and carried back to all the homes to re-light the fires that had been extinguished. The ending of the ceremony was the feasting in which everyone made votive offerings to the sun. When the sun rose that dawn, those who had stayed up to watch it might see it whirl three times upon the horizon before leaping up in all its summer glory. When the fire died down, the embers were thrown among the sprouting crops to protect them.

I missed another day blogging.  I'm not sure anything I blogged about yesterday woudl have been all that exciting. I was beat from work and rather crabby.....as I am today also...

Oft times, work can get the best of me and I'll be at the end of my rope by the end of the workday...much less come home and deal with the frustrating lack of logic that a 5 yr old has.

And let me just say that dealing with the scan department is like pounding your head against the wall...

You can ask them any question and they will give you the single most useless answer possible...get you nowhere, and give you a migraine...

SO...next time I need to talk to scan, I'll send someone else, and pound my head on the wall instead...same results...i learn nothing new and i get a headache..and nothing is actually accomplished...TA DA...lol

Well, it will be gone soon. A man stopped at the house today and asked about the blue car in the driveway.   He is a junk man and he wanted to "buy" the car.  So, he payed $50.00 for it and he's coming back this afternoon to tow it away.    Since it has been sitting there for 2 years. I'm not sure it was worth more than that anyways.  My mom just wants it gone.  So I told my dad to do whatever he wanted to with it.

  We put a lot of money into it right before we took it off the road.  It really wasn't worth it to do that.  There was a severe electrical problem in the dash.  Due, I believe and tried to tell my father and brother the ENTIRE time I owned the car, to the fact that the windshield seal was broken. It needed to be taken out resealed and dropped back in...Otherwise, the entire thing leaked, i had condensation on the INSIDE of teh windshield almost all year round, and the car reeked like mold....I think it dripped into the dash and shorted out the electrics.

  So, the car is gone..makes me laugh because my mom said to me just this morning....are you waiting for someone to just drive in and offer to take the car away? LOL...looks like that worked to me...HEHE

Doesn't it suck when you can't post your feelings on your own blog without people getting upset?

Wouldn't it be shocking to know that I actually censor my emotions somewhat on my blog?

I'm very frustrated at the moment,

Between the phone bill for this past month, my honey's dog's surgery, the cost of the honeymoon and a place to live and a bunch of other financial obligationis...that popped up all of a sudden....I'm ready to pound my head on the wall. 

My mother is going at me constantly because she and my father can't afford to pay for my wedding....but it's funny how they can  afford to buy an antique kitchen table and redo the garage section of the house and buy my daughter a $200 birthday gift.....

I can barely afford to buy my daughter a $20 gift.  *sigh* I haven't bought anyone any Birthday gifts this past year.....not the in-laws, and not even my own sisters...which I am feelign incredibly guilty about...but since im so broke im barely struggling from month to month.....I hope they all understand. 

My sisters are planning my bridal shower....which is supposed to be the job of my bridesmaids...which my oldest sister is one of, however....the two bridesmaids I expected to be helping the most right now, both dropped out of my wedding.

One of them recently broke up with her fiance of 5 years.  I'm not sure what I think of it.  I'm actually rather stunned. I had finally gotten used to her fiance....which took some doing...lol...since when I met him, she had tossed the guys shed been dating for over 5 years out the door and took up with the new guy all within a day.

I was also 5 months pregnant at the time, so my emotions weren't so steady.  Enter a couple of weeks ago....

She and her fiance broke up, and now she is living with a new guy and his 5 yr old daughter. He's nice, the daughter is cute.  But I feel like I just spun in a circle.  It was such a fast change.  4 months ago, she was planning on having children with the last guy and here she is with a new one, so fast....

What makes someone change their mind that quickly?

*sigh* at any rate I was talking abtou my bridesmaids.  I'm not really sure I have any except family at the moment.....Kelly was supposed to go get her dress a couple of weeks ago, but I'm not sure she did. I'll have to call her tomorrow and check.

My daughter's 5th birthday pary is tomorrow...and I just realized I forgot to buy the pink napkins....grrrr...

I didn't really invite anyone. I invited My sister and her daughter, and a close friend of ours and their daughter because I knew desiree woudl be upset if I didn't invite them.  Honestly I didn't want to have a party.  I didn't prepare any h'ors Deurves yet.  Which means that once I wake up tomorrow, I'm goign to have to whip some sort of food stuffes up out of no where....which is more money I wasn't prepared to spend this week....

Car Insurance will be late again...Huzzah!

Went to the movies tonight.  Went with a bunch of friends...used some super saver tickets from work.  We all went to see "House of Wax".  I left half way through the movie. I thought i was going to throw up.  It wasn't that there was a massive amount of gore.  It was more that the movie was just too much emotionally for me to handle.  Not to mention that I can't handle the thought of being waxed alive *shudders* which is why at this moment in time I am having trouble sleeping.  I'm going to have to find some stupid info mercial on tv to help me sleep.

Insomnia at it's best.

When I'm not sitting up awake thinking of finances, I'm up thinking of all the things that have already gone wrong with my wedding....

or some stupid horror movie...

Throw in the Spiritual side of things...and I seriously don't know what to do.

I requested off for Aric next Sunday. Which just happened to be Mother's Day.  Seriously, though, the Mother's Day thing wasnt my intention.  I simply need to impress upon him that we HAVE to start going to church...ESPECIALLY if we expect the pastor to marry us in oh..5 months.   *sigh* 5 months...

Can I go back to 2 years...and plan it all again...with a little more foresight...and push Aric harder to do the little things....like....get a credit card...and a normal bank account.... grrrr.....

does it get easier?

"What if this is as good as it gets?"

So, my car has one of those keys.  The kind with the computer chip in them. The ones that you have to go to the dealership to get copies made and they cost an arm and a leg...and then some....

So I called the dealership in Lockport today (as i have already had dealings with the one in Williamsville, and they tried to rook me for over $3,000), and talked to them abotu a replacement key , as i only got one when i bought the car.

It will cost me $69.95 for a new key, and $19.00 for each additional key i want made.  I'm making 3.  This way, if i lose another one, i'll have a spare...or two...or three...lol... And we all know, that tomorrow, I'll walk into work, and the key will have magically appeared overnight, because I replaced it, but if i hadn't....it would still be missing...LOL

So, I should have my car back tonight, may the gods be willing.  At this point, I am merely waiting for a phone call to pick up my car with the new keys...YAY....

Off to shower, since I feel like a scum bag.....as i culdnt sleep and didnt want to get up this morning...too many dreams of wax...*shudders* blah.

Perhaps my biggest problem with mornings, is ACTUALLY that I just don't go to sleep early enogh to get enough sleep and wake up. Hmmmm.....

I'm not sure , really.  Last night, I got home arounf 10:30, and played a video game for a while, before I knew it, it was midnight.  I have to work at 7:30 am today, so I turned the game off. I don't know why, but I didn't make it out of my chair to get into bed, but USUALLY when I fall asleep inthe chair, I sleep about 2 hours or so, and wake up at 2 or 3 AM....I JUST woke up...good thing or I'd have been yelled at at work by the managers! OY! lol....

Hi Ho, Hi Ho, It's off to Hell I go....*whistles*

VROOMMM....I got my car back....

As I said yesterday, and there is a lot goign on right now, with a previous co worker returning to my store...and me not being so thrilled with it....

As well as the usual wedding stress,....but...a few things did go right today....so instead of focussing on how irate I am about something, today I am going to focus on the good stuff that happened...

Kathy of the Quartet called me back, i DO have a quartet for my wedding.  YAY!!! When I called her the first time, she accidentally deleted the message....so she was hoping I would call back so she could get my number...

HOORAY! I'll be e-mailing her tonight with my music choices.

Also, one of my friends, who yesterday I had decided I had lost, due to some very nasty things that she had said, and other recent circumstances, called me today, and apologized, and we talked.  Oh, we usually have our little falling outs, but usually..I don't come to the conclusion that this might ACTUALLY be the last time we have the arguments....and we may never talk again.  Which, after over 12 years...would really suck.

So, today all in all, started out ok...went to sucky..but came back to ok and even good...so YAY!

Gotta get the munchkins in the bath soon. La Ta!

Got Court tonight....Everybody wish me luck....blah...

Hopefully it will go well, since i haven't had a ticket in over 5 years......

I'm hoping for a low fine...and driving school.......*crosses fingers*

Well, I'm home from court...I only got a $75 fine and school. I was expecting a lto worse, especially the way my day was going.  Of course, I ended the day about the same way I started it......crappy...lol

I have to go in at the ass crack of dawn tomorrow to put in an order before 9:30am....YAY...blah...

Well, despite the fact that is is the traditionally UNLUCKY day Friday the Thirteenth....all i have to say is....

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!

This past week has been Hellish...and yesterday...it was like everything went wrong right from the moment i awoke at 8:27 and had to be at work at 8:30.....

SO.....huzzah!

I have to work at 1:30pm until 10 pm....Gotta make a platter order tonight.  And tomorrow night, I have to make 4 platters. We have an extra person coming in tomorrow night so that all I have to work on is the platters, since we have so many. Carry Out has a bunch also.....we have a good $300 order or more for Sunday Morning at 9 am. Good deal!   we start off the week ahead in sales at any rate.

 OK...a short history on why the friday the thirteenth is considered UNLUCKY.

The name "Friday" came from a Norse deity worshipped on the sixth day, known either as Frigg (goddess of marriage and fertility), or Freya (goddess of sex and fertility), or both, the two figures having become intertwined in the handing-down of myths over time (the etymology of "Friday" has been given both ways). Frigg/Freya corresponded to Venus, the goddess of love of the Romans, who named the sixth day of the week in her honor "dies Veneris."

Friday was actually considered quite lucky by pre-Christian Teutonic peoples, we are told — especially as a day to get married — because of its traditional association with love and fertility. All that changed when Christianity came along. The goddess of the sixth day — most likely Freya in this context, given that the cat was her sacred animal — was recast in post-pagan folklore as a witch, and her day became associated with evil doings.

Various legends developed in that vein, but one is of particular interest: As the story goes, the witches of the north used to observe their sabbath by gathering in a cemetery in the dark of the moon. On one such occasion the Friday goddess, Freya herself, came down from her sanctuary in the mountaintops and appeared before the group, who numbered only 12 at the time, and gave them one of her cats, after which the witches' coven — and, by tradition, every properly-formed coven since — comprised exactly 13.

LOKI the EVIL ONE

Twelve gods were invited to a banquet at Valhalla. Loki, the Evil One, god of mischief, had been excluded from the guest list but crashed the party anyway, bringing the total number of attendees to 13. True to character, Loki raised hell by inciting Hod, the blind god of winter, to attack Balder the Good, who was a favorite of the gods. Hod took a spear of mistletoe offered by Loki and obediently hurled it at Balder, killing him instantly. All Valhalla grieved. And although one might take the moral of this story to be "Beware of uninvited guests bearing mistletoe," the Norse themselves apparently concluded that 13 people at a dinner party is just plain bad luck.

As if to prove the point, the Bible tells us there were exactly 13 present at the Last Supper. One of the dinner guests — er, disciples — betrayed Jesus Christ, setting the stage for the Crucifixion.

THE REASON BELIEVED TO BE THE SOURCE OF CONVERGENCE

The Knights Templar

One theory, most recently propounded in the novel "The Da Vinci Code," holds that it came about not as the result of a convergence, but a catastrophe, a single historical event that happened nearly 700 years ago. The catastrophe was the decimation of the Knights Templar, the legendary order of "warrior monks" formed during the Christian Crusades to combat Islam.

Renowned as a fighting force for 200 years, by the 1300s the order had grown so pervasive and powerful it was perceived as a political threat by kings and popes alike and brought down by a church-state conspiracy, as recounted by Katharine Kurtz in "Tales of the Knights Templar" (Warner Books: 1995):

"On October 13, 1307, a day so infamous that Friday the 13th would become a synonym for ill fortune, officers of King Philip IV of France carried out mass arrests in a well-coordinated dawn raid that left several thousand Templars — knights, sergeants, priests, and serving brethren — in chains, charged with heresy, blasphemy, various obscenities, and homosexual practices. None of these charges was ever proven, even in France — and the Order was found innocent elsewhere — but in the seven years following the arrests, hundreds of Templars suffered excruciating tortures intended to force 'confessions,' and more than a hundred died under torture or were executed by burning at the stake."

So...draw your own conclusions....or follow some of the standard beliefs.... Why do YOU think Friday the Thirteenth is unlucky?

Well, back by popular demand is Photogrpahy by Four...only...it is now...Photography by Five...as she is now 5...lol...

As those of you who have not experienced this before should know, it is photogrpahy by my daughter.  I hand her the digital camera, and let her go wild...lol...so without further ado......Today's THEME is FLOWERS!

Mommy


Gramma's Flowers from Mother's Day


Wait, I'll try again


Mommy's Dandelions


MY LEG!


I see you!


Open Wide


More Flowers...not real though.


My flowers and Gramma's Roses


Again...


Pretty flowers


The door


The door again....what's the white thing?


MY HAND!

ok. I need a little help guys. I just started this new RPG called Darkthrone RPG. It is online and text based...no actual fighting involved...which is VERY different for me....at any rate. I need help getting people in my town. SO, I'm gonna post a link, if you could all click on it, I get more citizens for every person who clicks on it...

PLEASE! and THANKS!

http://www.darkthrone.com/recruit.dt?uid=V30311B30243E30311R30362G30277V30328

OK...so....I'm gonna blog about my wedding..lol again...

I am in the process of completely revamping and redesigning my wedding website, so for those of you who have visited it...it will be changing soon, so don't get too attached to the details of it.

There is very little that is STILL accurate to that site...with people dropping out left and right, and me revamping my music choices....

We have gone into a whole new world of wedding planning....

So, I will post a link in the blog here for my wedding website in a few days.  With a little more work, I tink it will be up and up..whoohoo....

Also, please see my Spiritual Blog for an additional Blog moment today.....This was of a more spiritual nature, therefore I felt odd including it here, and determined thatr I would include it there instead.

OK. My memory sucks. I know there are a few of them out there, but ther eis an art website, where you can login, post your own stories, photography, or artwork. People can view them and comment and stuff. It is NOT elfwood...lol...

The color scheme of the website is gray and very plain in layout except for the tables for all of yoru info....anyone know what it is? I have an account on it, I posted to it...put my stuff on it...and now I can't remember where it is..because I'm a retard and forgot to bookmark it!!! HELP!

Another day..another work Monday....and Traffic School to boot..

what a joyous Week we're starting, eh?

Big Bird is really a lost and confused Chicken...

What do YOU think?

So, when was the last time you watched the Muppet Show?

HEHE... I watched it a couple of days ago with my daughter...and BOY was it like flashback city...lol

I used to LOVE that show when I was little. I don't think I could miss an episode EVER.

My brother in law (who married my sister when i was 4 yrs old) used to come over when he was dating my sister to watch it with us. We would be standing at the door waiting for him to get there and watch the opening with us. my mom said that if he missed the opening curtain on the show, I would cry through half the show....

lol....strange the things we don't remember.   hehe....but watching it..I realized what cheese...hehe...

But my daughtyer loves it just as much as I did. I wish the DVD's weren't so ridiculously expensive...bah!

I'm going downtown..WHOOHOO!

Laterz all!

what is it about men and sports, that they think that if they swear the most profane swear word they know that it will somehow alter the results of the event?

My fiance has been swearing for about 10 minutes now about Nascar....and all he saw was the last 3 laps....

*sigh* I don't think I'll ever get it.

So the sun has FINALLY decided to shine for more than an hour here.  And we are VERY excited by this. Especially since I will have a day off where the sun is shining..WHOOHOO. Of course, Since I actually have a day off and DON'T have to go to work........

I'm not really sure what to do with the day off. Any suggestions? It's been too long...lol

damn this looks just like me lol

*update*

I'm sorry to anyone who clicked this link.  It is a spybot.  If you downloaded it, I recommend that you run an antivirus program, OR go Trend Micro Housecall Online Antivirus and run that. Also, run Ad Aware to delete any running. You may have to edit your registry by typing regedit, and deleting anything that goes by the name of system.exe that is not based in your windows system folder.  Sorry abotu this guys!

I told you i saw this and thought of you...lol

You never know when something might strike you.  the vastness of the sky, the neverending movement of the ocean.

Have you ever just stood on the shore of the ocean and looked out to the edge of visibility?

It is no wonder that in the 14th and 15th century they believed that the world was flat and that if you sailed too far you would sail off.  Ahhh....the magic of an optical illusion.

The sheer distance of the ocean from say, the coast of NYC to the UK, is not really appreciated by modern travellers.  We simply hop a plane and fly for 7 hours and poof we're there....wherever there happens to be.

And yet, travellers as recent as the early 20th century relied on ships as a means of travel across the ocean...the trip taking days and even weeks to make.  I believe that in that manner, you can TRULY appreciate the distance that the ocean encompasses.  As you are in the middle of the ocean, far from land at any side, nothing but the water beneath and the sky above. 

Take yourself there.....what do you feel?

OK, so I blew the diet completely today...

LOL....not that I was doing such a fabulous job of following it anyways.Have you just ever been SOOO stressed out that you HAD to have some junk food? I couldn't take it. I got to work, knowing that I had leftover paperwork from the day before. YAY go me.  Also, that I had to write an order for Tuesday. So, I came in, made some cheese platters, checked on the truck, and wrote an order, then I had to compare my order with that is coming in tomorrow, to make sure I have no duplicates, then input the order.   SO, the order is all put in, and it's down to 2 people me, and Steph....

We got pounded. There were 3 people all afternoon, and 4 from 12:30-3, and here we are....at 3:15, just the 2 of us....getting our butts kicked.  It was nonstop....Steph left at 5...and the next in was Lori at 5:30....ahem...

Well, Lori called at about 5:05 to tell us that she had no ride. she didn't show up until 6:20, so i was lone for over an hour.  By the time she showed up, I was ready to flip....I hadn't had a break or anything yet, and it had been almost 6 hours...and it was NONSTOP in the deli the whole time....  So I grabbed a 45 minute lunch.break...wherin I downed chicken nuggets, hoho's and potato chips....I was in desperate need of junk food....

Then, I headed back to the deli...where Lori had been pounded in the department the whole time I was gone. It didn't stop until 8pm.  By that point, I was supposed to leave in an hour, and we had NOTHING done. we hadn't had a midshift, so we didn't even have the midshift work done. It was BAD. I left at 10:10, the majority of the work was done, but I left Lori there to finish up, I was on overtime, and she wasn't.  Not to mention, I now have to write the transfer at home ....now...

as well as a holiday recap, due tomorrow at the department managers meeting.......and be back at 6 am for work...:(

Wish me luck.....does anyone have any swedish fish?

OK! i enhanced the previous entry....

OK...Here is what we do on our days off...lol

ok it helps when I paste the images...lol...

Take the Polygeek Quiz at Thudfactor.com

OK...so I watched a VERY cute movie tonight with my daughter.

"Ella Enchanted"

And though I am a SUPREME sucker to  any good Romantic Comedy, it's always nice to find one that I can watch with my little one also.

At any rate.....It was a great movie...and I recommend it to anyone needing a cute little cuddly pick me up...

And here I have an image or two to enhance my push...hehe...

A gorgeous vista from one of the scenes....

So I had a nice day today.

The family and I (ie: my mom, dad, me, and daughter) went to Niagara Falls to escape the heat.

Afterwards, we took a little ride down to Youngstown for a late supper, and a nice view of the Niagara River.

Now, I'm home and I have MANY pics to share...but I have to work at 6 am...lol so I don't have too much time to share. It still amazes me to look at the falls. I personally prefer to view it from the Canadian side, since the view is SOOOOOO much better.   You can see ALL of the falls, not just the rapids going over the falls.

The sheer power of the water moving is somethign I believe every one should see at least once.  And no picture can truly encompass what it is like to be there.  However, I will include a few pics from our day here...and then off to sleep for me. More pics tomorrow on demand...lol...

The American Falls, with a view of Canada in the Horizon

The American Falls, with a view of the MIST from the Horseshoe falls beyond.

My mom and daughter witht eh falls behind them.

Where we had Supper

My daughter and I being silly

A Relaxing Water View

The end to a gorgeous day

OK....Wenchy got  me into this thing called Catch27. It's like an online baseball carsd trading thingie, only what you're trading is people cards....lol like your friends cards.  So....I asked all my friends...wel those that I thought might go along with it....and most of them didn't join my pack...so im asking you guys now...PLEASE PLEASE join my pack!!!!

Click the link to join my pack and play too!

http://www.catch27.com/join.php?invite=14858

OK...so I have made the decision that I need to go back to the GYM!  After watching silvara7   blog about it...lol...

I knew I wanted to go back before, but I haven't had time, due to obscene working conditions...lol...

So, I have decided it is time to let go of the excuses and make the effort to go back...

HOWEVER....I am going to be in desperate need of EVERYONE'S encouragement and commentary and stuff to keep me Motivated.  I know fitting in my wedding dress shoudl be motivation enough......BUT>..

I already do.....lol I just woudl like to have the dress be too big and need taking in ....and all that kind of fun ideas...

Also....if anyone knows where I can find strong boning for a corset? I need to rebone my corset...The boning in it, is the standard Feather boning, and it is bunching when I wear it..and once it bunches...man it doesn't unbunch...Grrrr....

I plan to go back to the gym tomorrow evening..... I am going to get a gym schedule....and start posting my work and gym schedule on here each Sunday....so guys....start pushing me..adn asking whether or not i went..and encouragement is always welcome! THANKS!

*****UPDATE*****

OK...so i checked the gym schedule and tomorrow (which is my day off)  there is nothing really exciting to me as far as classes go, so if i go tomorrow, it will be a straight workout.  I need to rewrite out myself a workout.... and STICK TO IT. I don't really feel like dealing with a trainer this time...

SO am am taking my old workout that I really liked...what I can remember of it....and make myself a new one...

OK...out of curiosity, does anyone undersstand the number system on that little gague? is is supposed to be days along with the rest? I am SOOO confused.

ok....so I didn't make it to the gym on Wednesday.  Big surprise to be sure.lol. However, I did make it Thursday after work.  I went to the Hi/Lo Aerobics class taught by Father Joe. It was very frustrating to realize how much weight I have gained since I was in his class before, and I went through 2 liters of water during the class. YOWSERS! And I wasn't working all that hard....but my heart rate was WAY up there. SO i am very back beyond where I started in my cardio status. I scheduled a reprogramming for Monday....much as the last thing i want to do is go in and see how much weight I have gained...BLAH.

So, after the aerobics class, I came home, no sense pushing it. I am going to concentrate on the cardio for the next few days until I see James ( my instructer who talks like a stalker...lol). And yes I HURT like a MO FO today.

I work 1:30pm - 10 pm today. The gym is open until 11pm, so I will probably go AFTER work, since I will lose what little time i get wiht my daughter this morning if i go before...PLUS, if i go before I'd have to go at like 11:30, because I would need about 15 minutes to drive there, 45 or so for cardio, figure in walking and waiting time and you have about 1 1/2 hours now, and I need to shower before I go to work....and work is 5 minutes down the road...not even...so  I would need a full 2 hours before I go to work....which I might be able to swing...now that I am thinking abotu it, but I think I will be better motivated to go , IF i wait until after work, and wear my gym clothes under my tops clothes , so all I have to do is strip them off and hop int he car, which will give me a full 45 minutes or more to work out. And yes, I am babbling....it is more like I am thinking out loud.

Tomorrow is abiut more tricky, in order to adhere to my dedication to the gym I will have to go at 8:30 am....blah...since the gym hours are only 7am-7pm, and I work 10:30-7pm There are no classes that interest me tomorrow either, since the class I used to take called Variety Challenge, is no longer taught by Father Joe. I don't think I would like it as much.  It is his energy and such that keeps me going during the aewrobics class.  These little skinny girls who have zero personality and make you feel GUILTY for not being able to go faster...just piss me off during those classes...lol... But they are fine for classes liek Pilates, or Yoga.  Which are other classes that interest me.

OK, so now you guys know my gym schedule...lol...I'm disappointed since only wenchy jumped ont he did you go to the gym yet band wagon :(

OH! another reason my aerobics class was harder than I remember it...I forgot all my gym stuff at home, since I was only half coherent when I went to work....so I called my mom and asked her to throw some gym stuff ina bag for me to take with.....she put in a shirt, pants, and sneakers.....what did I forget that is essential?

You got it! a sports bra....and I'm sorry a regular bra is not made for a LARGE chested woman to be doing aerobics.....lol.... off to shower

So, I went to the gym on Thursday and survived Father Joe's class....and I went to the gym after work Friday...lol

However, i did not survive my workout. I think a regular trip on the elliptical on the cross country mode, was a bit much for my first time out...and It only got worse when I accidentally hit the reset button halfway through...ARGH! So I restarted...then hit the button again 5 minutes later...at whichpoint, I decided that 20 minutes was enough my ass and legs were burning...and I went home...lol

So I didn't go today... It was a little over ambitious of me to think i woudl get out of BED to go to the gym...after 3 days...lol... so I'll go tomorrow after work. I work 8:30-5 and I will go at 5 until 7ish...I plan on being less ambitious and doing the OTHER elliptical machine and the interval training..which is a little less random and painful...lol...then maybe some situps and a trip on the stairmaster if i get the ambition for that...depending on how much I hurt afterthe elliptical....yupyup...

But Monday I have an appointment with a trainer for a reprogramming...James...hehe...

and I will be getting an all new weight program. YAY! i think? lol so then Tuesday I fast talked Julie a friend at work into going to the gym with me for Father Joe's aerobics class. She was worried that she coudlnt do it..I was like..PUH LEASE! you are in MUCH better shape than I am...and if I can survive it...lol anyone can! hehe..

So I plan to hit the gym about 4 and take his trekking class before the aerobics class....then the aerobics class..and MAN my ass will hurt BAD! SO planning on taking Wed off....lol

OK so haha time...this is me in my work uniform...hehe

Happy Father's Day for all the father's out there!

I have more to say, but I am just too tired...lol...g'night

SO I didn't go the gym yesterday....seeing as how no one reminded me that it was FATHER'S DAY! lol...

So i did the family dinner thing instead.

But i had my reprogramming appointment today.. I was totally blown away! I am in better shape than I was last year in November when I FIRST went back after injuring my back the last time.  So that was a shock. I am abotu the same as I was last year in February....but not as I was at my peak in November of 2003. So... the goal is to get as fit as I was then, with the diet I had in Feb 2004. YAY! GO ME!

So I had my basic reprogramming and I needed to relearn how to do some of the stuff.  James seemed to think I was in pretty good shape so he gave me a pretty good workout. As opposed to last time , where they wanted to basically start me over.  :( Which is probably why I stopped going, along with more responsibility at work, and stress, and  low self esteem.  I had just taken over the deli at the time and I was very frustrated with my self and my abilities...and my stress levels were through the roof.....At the end of the measurement chart, they have a place for rating your lifestyle...liek whether or not you smoke, how well you eat, and your stress levels...and exercise levels.... and my scores from last time were TERRIBLE... I  rated my stress level based on a scale of 1-10 ;1 being worst and 10 being best, at a 3.....WOW stressed...lol... so needless to say I feel much better now...

So after that, they snuck in an extra appointment for him, so in order for him to show me the rest of my stuff, I had to wait for an hour until he was free again... So in the mean time I did some cardio. I did 30 minutes on level 3 hill intervals on the old Ellipticals....which was cake, so I think it is back up to level 4 next time,....when I left I was on level 5...so I wanted to test myself....then I got some more water and back onto the old elliptical backwards for 15 minutes... on level 2 random...which was pretty painless....so I'll be upping the level next time for that also...and possibly using the new ellipticals. they look less stressful on the knees when going backwards...but tight butt here I come.

Tomorrow I go back to get my ab training at 4 (another appointment with James) and Julie a friend from work will be joining us....YAY JULIE! ...and then I plan to take the Trekking class from 4:45- 5:15 with Fthr Joe, and then Hi/Lo afterwards from 5:30-6:15, and Abs and Stretch (which is basically a part of Hi/Lo) from 6:15-6:30.

YAY... but BOO i have to work at 5 am! :( lol

OH and I almost forgot the best part! When I left the GYM... I FELT GREAT! I am SOOOO psyched!

Let me start off by saying that I hope  greeneyedbrunette doesn't mind that I stole her "thing" of using lyrics to express the feeling or mood for the blog. 

Today, was the very last day for my manager Brian.    I am devastated by this loss, and I can only hope that nothing horribly wretched comes from it, as his leaving is hard enough for me to take.   He was a fabulous manager. When I was struggling to figure out what my job was, and how to do it, he really stepped up to the plate and  helped me out.  He taught me everything I know about my job, and gave me the confidence to keep going. If it weren't for him, I am positive I would be an overnight cashier again , by force, right now.    He treated me, and everyone else as though they were humans, with feelings and thoughts and aspirations.  He talked to people as though they were equals, he didn't dummy things down for anyone unless they asked him to.

He went to bat for me with the store manager, when no one else would, and he didn't even know what I was or wasn't capable of at that time.    He became my mentor. I feel that I at least met his standards....and hopefully exceeded them. And we have shared some memories that I will never forget, and i doubt he will either (14 hour inventory)   . But, I really don't think I will ever see the likes of Bugai as a manager again.    So, if the opportunity comes up, I will follow to his store, for the sheer pleasure of not haveing to "prove" myself to him, and being treated like someone with thoughts and actual ideas, instead of a fluff brained moron.

And so, I refuse to say "Bye Bye Bugai".  I will instead say:"Until we meet again on the road of life, may life treat you with respect, and never let you down."

To You Brian: You taught me so much in so little time. You believed in me when no one else would.  You gave me confidence in myself, and showed me how to build confidence in others. Words cannot express how much the short time you were with us meant and so I will simply say "thank you". You will be missed.  

I'd just like to send out a happy birthday to.....

ME! :) hehe

OK the plans for today involve:

Church

Driving to Rochester to take Aric to the Scooby Doo Shoot

Drive back to Batavia for some afternoon quiet....which may not happen, depending on my mood...

Drive back to Rochester to Pick him Up

Drive back to Batavia for dinner

Drive home and put my crabby munchkin to bed

I'm thinking this may be WAY too much driving...so I'm thinking of....skipping the trip back to Batavia...

OK time to get ready for Church.....I'll take pictures...lol you can all see my exciting day of driving...

OK I'm scared ....where did I learn prison slang?! lol

So tomorrow, I have to get out of bed early and NOT get to see my daughter at ALL :( so that I an drive tot he J. Mills Factory in Orchard Park BEFORE I go to work on my OWN time......Grrr...if they don't reimburse me for gas, I am going to pitch a royal fit....cuz that is a 40 minute drive, and it's going to be like a quarter tank of gas! ARGH!

Then, I get to work....I was planning on going to the gym afterwards...but I'm not sure I even feel like it.... *sigh* I'm thinking forget the gym... the only problem is that if i don't go tomorrow...I won't go until Monday at the earliest....and that is IF i want to go on the holiday....and its only open from 7am-2pm...so not so likely...AND if i go tuesday after work.....i will then go straight to band practice.....since tuesdays are my class....*sigh* i just don't know what to do....... and then there's krys. I told her I would come pick her up before I went to the airport tomorrow...BUT....if i have to drive out to OP and all that shit...I don't think I will feel like picking her up also...I'm still trying to figure out what I'm doing tomorrow.... hmmm....

SO.... off to sleepyland so I can get up and outta bed to work on my own time...lik ei Haven't done enough of that shit...

and dammit...i cut the tip of my pinkie finger on the slicer!!! :(

ok ...I'm off to see the wizard...the wonderful wizard of oz....*whistles*

OK..so I'm not really...lol... lets see,

8:30 AM:

drove to OP for the stupid J. Mills crap...apparently and luckily missed a HUGE accident involving a DUmp truck, a cinder block guard rail type thingie in the middle of a 6 lane highway, and cars on the other side being hit with some of the crumbling debris..... I got to see the tail end of it as I passed the front end demolished dump truck on my way back to the store from the factory. 

10:20 AM:

Arrived at the store, where the power is out and has been for  about 20 minutes... apparently the whole area had a couple of grids down....*sigh* which meant that it would be out for a while....

12 NOON:

NO news yet. Decide to clean the Olive Bar since we had to empty it and it's full of Mold and Rust. Donna L. leaves to check on her mother who is in one of the areas with no power.

12:30 PM:

Power back up fully operational once again...*sigh* and here I was looking forward to an early day....

3:00PM:

Escaped to do paperwork. Which in 2 days had piled up somewhat.  Corrected errors from the previous week's purchase log, that Donna had emailed to our upper manager...incorrect.

5:00PM:

Break time again.....oh, no wait, paperwork..no wait... talk tot he manager... no wait paper work problems...no wait..ARGH! LIZ LEAVE ME ALONE!

7:00PM:

FINALLY time to leave!! THANK GOD!

7:40PM:

Munchkins in bathtub

8:30PM:

Munchkins OUT of bathtub and dry and playing at Noggin.com

9:10PM:

Munchkins in my little one's bed, pretending to have a "Slumber Party" while they wait for my sister to get off of work and pick up her little one.

9:34PM:

My sister arrives...and now I have decided against the Gym... I am beyond tired... I am going to shower and nap before I have to get dressed and pick up the peeps at the airport.

Oh...wait I need to stop at Wal-Mart and get a peice of poster board so I can write on it  "P2 Taxi"

Otherwise, DS and Tiffie won't be able to find me....hmmm.....dammit I need to clean out the car...*sigh*

11:00PM:

Left House

11: 36 PM:

Arrive at Airport, Park and enter

11:49 PM:

Found DS! YAY!!!.. Sadly I found DS sans Luggage. His LUGGAGE was in Chicago still...

11:50PM:

Begin looking for Tiffie while DS goes to talk to the airline about  his missing luggage, and give them a contact number and address to deliver the baggage to.

12 MIDNIGHT:

Hunt up DS again to make sure he isn't lost,  return to 2nd floor to look for Tiffie....

12:30 AM:

Call Krys to ask for a description of Tiffie: Received the answer from Urky of: "She has darkish hair" followed by...just walk arouund the terminal screaming:"Tiffie Wiffie Scooter Butt!" which we both refused to do...lol

So instead...we walked around TALKING about Tiffie loudly in front of every dark ish haired female we saw that looked lost.. this was a bust

12:44 AM:

Called Krys again... told her to get her butt online and see if she can get a better description of Tiffie so we have a CLUE what we are looking for.

12:50 AM:

Receive via text message a new better description: Red Hair, chin length, HUGE tits, a little chunky, wearing black shorts, a striped shirt. Had a black carry on and red suitcase.

12:52 AM

DS and I split up to look for Tiffie, i again headed to the 2nd floor.  I was taking the stairs...when I saw a lost and terrified looking girl goign down the escalator. I backtracked, walked up to her and said: "Are you Shelby?"

The relief was palpable! lol....

1:13AM

In the car in a line at the exit waiting to pay for my parking and depart

2:15 AM:

Arrive at Krys and Urky's house, drop everyone off, chit-chat for a few minutes then leave for home.

3:08 AM:

Arrive home, change clothes, Check e-mail, Blog, and get ready for bed. Log into chat to reassure everyone that the pick up went fine.

4:15AM:

Go to Bed NITE!

But when I tried to speak out Felt like no one could hear me............

I really don't know where to start, which is why I didn't begin this already. I am extremely overwhelmed by the weekends events.  I suppose I will begin with last year.

There is a crossroads in every persons life, and I met mine several years ago via a 2x4 courtesy of Gar. He was my "teacher" and confessor. He helped me to understand and accept aspects of myself that I had been denying and blocking and ignoring for quite some time. I probably would have imploded had I repressed them much longer. We meet certain people in our lives because we have something that we need to learn from them, and often, we are there to teach them something in return.   My life had escalated out of my control, and instead of attempting to retain my hold or grasp tighter, I was slowly allowing everything to slip away. Many of my friends abandoned me, as well as family members fighting with me and such. I was truly disgusted with everything.  Gar taught me valuable lessons and I am ever grateful to him, but there comes a time when the student learns all that the master has to teach, and must go out intot he world to find another more wise and able than those they have met in the journey of life so far.  And so it began, that I was wandering. Wandering within the mists, seeking, yet knowing not what.

Late night shifts came, and my restless energy reached a peak, insomnia set in with a vengence, and so it was that I wandered into P2 one night.  And was greeted by two individuals intetested in my profile...lol... Dom and Wolvie. Without whom, I would most likely not have stayed, and so they will always have a very honorable recognition in this phase of my life, in this leap into the next level. 

Last year, I was relatively new to the P2 set.  I still am in comparison to some of those that I have met and have come to the "Krys and Urky Experience".   And yet I was accepted into the fold and felt at home immediately.  When the Initial Party time approached, some of the party goers approached Krys and Urky and urged them to invite me despite the fact that they barely knew me.  For that, I am grateful as well, and flattered that I was thought of.  Since they lived no more than a 30 minute drive from my home, I agreed and so it was that I met Krys and Urky for the first time in person. My experience with that first year was shakey at best. I belonged, and yet I didn't. I was too new to be completely comfortable with the face to face aspect of the party.  And sensing what some of the party members were capable of (ie: ele) I was apprehensive abotu "fitting in" and being comfortable.  It is a habit I have had as long as I can remember the urge to fit in and be accepted.

Despite the fact that my TITS are what made me an accepted part of the crowd...lol...I got the message that I was welcome.  I enjoyed the party, but remained on edge about how some of those whom were there felt abotu me.....were they stand offish because they didn't like me? ahh the beauty of self involvement....heh

 Over the course of the year, I have come to know Krys and Urky better, and have come to love them like siblings.

So this year, I was not the planner, but I was an integeral part of the planning process. I was the taxi...lol...

I met 3 of the party goers at the airport and took them to their doom....hehe....

On Friday, it was the beginning for me. As the party goers had mostly arrived and those who were their began the celebration early.  Saturday was a blast....with nakie time for Urky and Keith, and some kilt lifting exercises...lol... But all in all, the night became the beginning of a wonderful weekend. 

If i continue to elaborate on all this... I am sure I will lose many before I finish. But bear with me if you can. This year, the "gathering" was much more intense. Some of the strongest of the clan had come to this party.  The tension was palpable. The moods extreme. I woudl like to take this moment to address those to whom I refer at this time.

Krys- she is one of the strongest women I know...in spirit if not body.  for what she lacks, she makes up with acceptance for all, love, and a heart the size of Texas. She woudl never turn down someone in need, unless it was a threat to someone close to her.

Urky - he is a wonderful man. A great cuddly teddy bear when you need comforting and a shoulder to lean on, his voice can drop to that tender pitch to soothe and relax. But if his "family" be threatened, he will become the most dangerous person you will ever meet.

Ele - In terms of power, this woman is the ultimate. She will shock you with her intensity. Her smiles are few, and reserved for times of great humor...but when that happens, it is like the sun peeking from behind the clouds. She hides little, but the soft and precious heart beneath her battle worn exterior.....

DS- You are truly the story teller for the group.  Every group, no matter the size, must have one who will remind those of why they are there, and advise in times of great strife. Their experience is beneficial to all, and they can teach great things, but they are also those that must remember that everything happens for a reason, and thouh we may not understand it at the time, we will one day....because we are never through learning from others, and you can learn something new from those you least expect it.

Puck - You are something else kiddo.  You seem to have somethign of a hit and miss poicy going...*winks* but when the chips are down, you are one to count on. ANd though you act as oblivious as possible, you miss nothing that goes on. And I will not be fooled even for a moment again...lol...

Wyse - Honey...you made my weekend...and sorry but i refuse to include the fool in your name...as you are nobody's fool.  You put on a good show, but the caring person underneath gave you away...I suppose it is the protector in you coming out...*winks*

Shannon - A more loving and accepting woman I will never meet.  She loved everyone on sight, and probably wouldn't hurt a fly....she is very sensitive and caring and will be on my list.....which unlike ele's is a good list..lol

OK I have more people I would like to touch on..., but I will leave some more for tomorrow.....

I was beginning the process of  hunting up images to represent what I see in you all, btu I was gettign frustrated with my lack of success. As the images I want are solely in my head, and finding ones that match, are going to be pretty much not a happening...so blah..unless i have a sudden influx of artistic ability...also not likely...you will all have to settle for the images I'll eventually draw with words...lol...

So Saturday night was for fun, Sunday night for relaxation and Monday was for Resolution and Clarification.

I had a fabulous time, and I am flattered by the opinions of those who were there and the open affection i received. On Monday I was in MAJOR need of  their assistance, and they all hopped in  without a second thought.

It was like a family reunion the way it is meant to be....complete with the disfunctional aspect...lol..

I will tell more of the fun that happened in later blogs...but I had to get some of this out.... There will also be an upcoming spiritual blog within about a week... after writing this I can see that I need more time to get my thoughts together....

OK. I have spent the last 3 hours fighting with mindsay and my computer to let me get my spiritual blog posted.  And it has finally allowed me to finalize it after getting deleted TWICE.  So here she is....

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And without FURHTER ado....THE BLOG: ladydhampyre 

Since my last post, there have been a lot of changing tides.  I really don't know what else to call them. A little peice of reality has shifted, and I am seeing a whole new side of many things.

  I really need to begin again with the post about the weekend. I suppose that for about 10 of us, the weekend was a little more profound, than it was for others.

    I find myself struggling for words to express the things that passed, the feeling expressed and the things that were done and said and experienced.  What seems failrly simple in the beginning has become a week long task at attempting to express myself and honor those who deserve it.

      I would like to first say, that P2 is a group from a chat room on Yahoo, in the Religions and Belief's section, called Paganism:2: THUS P2.

      When I refer to the "clan" it is simply a term. Family is often referred to as a clan, and although I am sure my own family will be offended byt his, they really seemed like a fmaily to me.  The gathering was more of a family reunion than a party.  My own experiences with family reunions have been shitty. No one is very friendly, they seem to stay within their own limb of the family tree, and not fraternize witht he others. It is miserable... THIS gathering, was what a family reunion SHOULD be like.

       I suppose my weekend began on Thursday, when I lost Tiffie at the airport!  I didn't make a sign. I didn't even care about the sign, for some bizarre reason (see other blog) I felt completely confident in my ability to find two complete strangers at the airport, without identification.  And I did. If only I had known that her flight was later, I would not have gotten as worked up as I did.

      DS.... meeting DS.....was something of a surprise...lol. I believe it is because I thought he would be taller.  Don't ask me why. I believe it has something to do with his "presence".  He has the sort of compelling voice that makes you think of power.

     The journey continued, with a failed attempt to procure cigs for DS, and a long carride made shorter by my tendency to speed when I want to go home and sleep....lol. I dumped them off at Krys' house, where Christine had already arrived. She really didn't say much to me. In fact, I don't think she spoke mroe than like 2 sentences to me all weekend.... so I really didn't get to know her.

     Ele had been there for a week. I met Ele last year, but she will continue to surprise me every time I see her with something new, I think. Maybe an aspect of her personality, something she will say, or perhaps just a bit of anatomy she was hiding last year? lol

      I played nice nice for about 5 minutes, then flew home to bed.  The next day was pretty much a typical work day, hell on earth, And i ran from the place to shower quickly before I picked up Penty at the airport.  Penty... well, he was exactly the same. But... he was very polite and didn't embarass me unduly.  THANK THE GODS!

     We picked up the little one on the way out, and he met my parents... who were suitably impressed with his manners. Then I collected the munchkin and we continued on.....

   This is where my lines blur. We spent several hours there. I met those who had arrived in my absence, Satan, Gwen, Steve, Shannon and D, and awaited the return of Krys and Christine, and Witchy, and Claire.  Suddenly, Krys bursts from the side of the house and yells:" Hey guys! Guess who I found?!" And is immediately tackled to the ground from the side by an orange blur....Enter Wyse and his counterpart Puck.....

    .....and so it was....and so it will be....

       Eventually we left. I don't remember much of the night except that Desirée had a bath with Mani at some point, and then we went home for some sleep time.

     The next day we loaded up the car, Aric cancelled on us, and we tooled off to the party.  Upon Arrival, we found that mostly everyone was there and set up.. and I discovered that I had the WRONG tent poles.  BLAH.

Thankfully, I lived close enough by, and my mommy is a FABULOUS mommy... and nosey...lol.. and therefore drove teh tent poles out to us, so that I and the little munchkin had a sleepy place for the night.

    We ate Hotdogs, Desirée learned sword play, and it was the experience of a normal Family reunion. I jammied Desirée up and tucked her in, and despite the noise, she was asleep before 10 pm.  Sadly, I forgot to make sure that she had gone potty, and she ended up wetting the sleeping bag. I flipped the mattress over, changed her clothes, and tucked her back in to MY sleeping bag.... which left me with only a blanket....

      I hooked my blanket and stumbled back out to the fire... JUST in time.. for the LIVE Puck and Wyse show...

I don't think that if i spent HOURS on this that I could adequately describe that experience....and so instead of  attempting to .. I will include a pic...lol....

 Are you scared yet? LOL I was somehow nominated to be their special "guest star", which thankfully, they both had had enough to drink that they forgot about me rather quickly...lol well until they were freezing their asses off.... can't imagine why?! It couldn't have anything to do with the lack of clothing, could it?  I ended up the night by seeing , with my own eyes, that several of the men were uhmm... actually men... let me just point out that this was NOT by choice!!! LOL...  Urky streaked, and his "brother" Keith Streaked with him.. up the street no less... Thank GOD that they live out in the middle of no where! And of Course Urky had to double check to make sure that Puck was regimental! And the same went for Wyse after he decided to remove the Leiderhosen due to some spacial issues.... *rolls eyes*

Thus, me being the kind hearted soul I am, and it being a FRIGID night, I shared my blanket with the two boys...hehehe... and they in turn shared their sleeping bags with me... not like that SICKO's! We were inthe chairs by the fire the whole time! lol... until about 5 am or so...then I slid into my tent and stuffed my body into MY sleeping bag with Desirée.

And so it was... and so it shall be .. evermore...

There is MUCH MUCH more, but I think that is enough Traumatic imagery for the moment...lol... I will share the next day's fun later today, or tomorrow...whichever you want to call it. I haven't slept yet, so tomorrow it is for me! :)

'Til then... ciao

OK my mom is home.... which is rather a shocker... But she isn't throwing up any more., and hopefully once the meds wear off, it won't start again.  I have to work tomorrow night. And We'll have to see what we can arrange for the weekend with my sister still. I will have to call ROni and Debbie now and let them know what's going on.

But she's not completely well yet. Keep sending your good energies tthis way thanks!